Tears of Sorrow (Anakin Skywalker x Reader)

Part 12

Anakin looked at me and thought about how my life is crumbling right before his eyes. He knew I couldn't be alone and kneels down to me and pulls me in for a hug. He tried to fight the tears that formed in his eyes. He tried to comfort me as much as he could and brought my head up to his face, "I am so sorry for being an absolute idiot towards you, but please know that I love you so much and I would be lost without you." I looked in his eyes and could see the tears in his eyes and moved closer and whispered, "Anakin, I never thought I could say this but I love you so much and even though we argue I never want you to leave me. When you left the Medical Bay, it was like a kick to the stomach and I wouldn't want to feel that ever again."

Before Anakin could reply, my lips collided with his and tears fell. I had been missing this feeling the entire time and the passion I felt made me levitate. I pulled away while smiling and giggled a bit and Anakin did the same then we hugged again. I loved his hugs but I loved hearing his laugh. I looked back up at him and wiped his tears and kissed his cheek. Anakin broke the silence, " So...does that mean-" I nodded and pecked him. A smile grew on Anakin's face.

I looked at Anakin, "Now you might want to get out before we get caught." He grins while getting up and blows a kiss. I smiled and caught it but then I was brought back to reality with all the negative news with me and I looked down after Anakin left. I felt mad at myself and cried in my knees, wishing that I could just be with Anakin but of course I had to wake up one day and kill innocent lives. Luckily I found a comm and tried to contact Anakin's right hand man, Captain Rex.

After a few tries he answered, " Who do you think you are trying to contact me after killing my brothers?" I expected that answer and I felt awful and sighed, " I understand this is very difficult for you and believe me I feel terrible. I didn't know what I was doing and I want to let you know how awful I feel and saying I'm sorry would be insult because that wouldn't make anything better but I just wanted to let you know I feel for you..."

There was no answer from him and I sighed and turned off my comm. So, I got up and lied in bed and fell asleep or tried to. I resorted to meditating and thought about the life I had before, when I was a happy youngling being taught by Master Yoda and I had no worries at that time. But then, the voices clouded my thoughts, " (y/n), I know it may seem challenging, but please don't beat yourself up." The other voice reminded me of the things I have done, " No, she does not need pity. Now she will be living up to her punishment." Then my mind became the ocean of Kamino rushing in. I felt like I couldn't breathe, then one memory appeared in my mind. It was me killing Count Dooku. I shook my head aggressively while screaming no and I tried to stand up but failed.

I felt like I was suffocating and tried to focus on my breath, but I was hyperventilating. " Help!!" I screamed with all of the emotion I was dealing with. My vision started to blur but two figures picked me up and I blacked out. I was in a whole different world again, but everything was dark and gloomy until there was someone in front of me. It was me but she had sith eyes with a grin on her lips.

She studied me while I was studying her and for some reason I did not feel scared. I felt more comfort but I shook that thought out of my head. "Well, well, well. Look who it is. The more boring version of me. I see you are trying so desperately to keep yourself from falling. You were meant to cause destruction." My eyes widen, "What are you talking about?" She smirked and laughed, "Don't look innocent. You haven't just realized it. You are the reason the Jedi will not exist."

I glared at her, she doesn't know who she is messing with, " I think I can risk the tendencies of turning to the dark side, unlike you. you gave in because you were weak." She started to laugh and moved closer. "Do you really believe you can deny your destiny? You already have blood on your hands. Count Dooku, the clones, and you think they can just be brushed off? I am surprised that Anakin still accepted you after what you did to him." I looked down. Anakin was the only person I would do anything for and I know he would do the same.

For a moment I let myself be and thought about everything she had said. Was she right? Is this my destiny? She shook her head, " I honestly think your Anakin's assignment, not his partner. Why would he be in love with a sith, who broke his heart, who threatened to kill him and his beloved friend? (y/n), you are blind. He is using his love against you to get information from you to report to The Council."

Without hesitation I screamed, "You have no clue who you are talking about! Anakin is the most loyal person I have ever met!" She just looked at me without anything else to say. My anger started to bubble in me and I started to force choke her. I wanted her dead more than anything and saw her lifeless on the ground just like Zam and Count Dooku. Then feel the relief of her death. I smirked and brought her close to my face while she was gasping for air. "I do not belong to the Sith and I would love to see you beg and cry for mercy. After that, I will see you lying lifeless on the ground. I learned better than to deal with you scums."

All of a sudden, she disappeared and I began to fall and I thought to myself.

"Am I dying?"