Tears of Sorrow (Anakin Skywalker x Reader)

Part 24

              There is still too much to say about him because he is different from all the generals because he allowed himself to feel those emotions he had inside. My thoughts were interrupted by the guards dropping me to the floor in front of the most ugly life form I had ever seen. Stumbling on getting up, he opened his mouth to ask why I was brought back here.

              With a sharp inhale, I apologized directly to him. He smirked and nodded because I came to my senses. Now he will force me to lose all of what makes me human and be a cold-blooded killer like I was before. I sighed just thinking about Anakin, and I just apologized and patched up our friendship.

              Then he threatened me, saying that if I didn't become what I was, I would be left for dead. I agreed and decided that I shouldn't be "distracted" because he could tell I was slipping away from the path I was supposed to take. The guards took my arms and dragged me out of the room and out to the hanger. Just when I thought anything could get worse, there was Anakin running towards me, worried. My eyes were red and puffy, and I had dark circles around my eyes. Anakin asked the guards what had happened in anger, and they replied that he had misbehaved and been punished for his doings.

             In that moment, I knew he was going to snap, and I don't want him to suffer the consequences. Anakin ordered them to let go of me and that I would be taken care of by him. The guards were reluctant but gave in because Anakin was feared by so many. He carried me in bridal style to his quarters to nurse me back to health, and when we got there, the door slides open and Anakin walks in to lay me on his bed. The concern was very present in his eyes, and he of course wanted to know what had happened. The comfort I received from him eased my mind and body, and I fell asleep within the first few seconds of being in his quarters.

             While I was asleep, I heard Anakin's thoughts about multiple things: Padme, all the decisions he has made, our relationship, etc. I murmured in my sleep, "Lord Sidious ordered me to kill Padme." I was startled when Anakin threw something, then he looked at me, sitting by my side upset, and my eyes were wide, "Are you alright?!" He huffed, "Do I look okay to you? I heard what you said in your sleep."

             Confusion overtook me, and I snapped back, "I was just making sure you were okay; I'm sorry if that offended you. What do you mean you heard what I said?" Anakin got even more upset: "You said in your sleep that Lord Sidious ordered you to kill Padme." He sounded cold and harsh, and I turned pale at the thought that he had found out why Padme was killed. My heart broke that he had heard that from me, and I knew that if he had found out, he would ask more questions. Sadly, I was right.

              Anakin continued to express his anger about Padme's death and pointed his finger at me, telling me I had a choice. Eventually, I had enough, which led me to have yet another screaming match with him. I told him everything and that I was officially done having arguments every single time we were together. Not to mention that I wanted to leave but couldn't because of my physical condition.

              After all, I was emotionally tired of being mistreated for doing what I was supposed to do. I couldn't cry or feel depressed. It's just annoyance that I have been experiencing for the last few days, and this is going to be the last time I give in to anyone. I'm done caring about anyone or anything. I'm done listening. I'm done with feeling less than what I am. I'm done. And so, I gathered up all of my strength and slowly got up.

              But then, Anakin told me to stay and rest, but I was not giving into his games anymore, so I coldly replied, with no. Obviously, he wasn't bothered and still told me to stay. Again, I replied with no and said that I don't want anything to do with him. His face was in mine, and he murmured that he doesn't care. I objected, pushing him away, and stood up slowly to get to the door. The door opened, and I looked back and smirked at him, "I am warning you," walking out from his quarters and limping to mine.

              The chant was in my thoughts, and I knew this is when I would tap into the power of the Sith. I saw the guards in front of my quarters, and then they were gasping for air. A little smirk appeared on my face and I whispered, "Treat me like that again, or suffer the consequences." Their bodies fell to the ground, and walking over them was the start of new beginnings.
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               From then on, I meditated for hours to gain my strength and trained alone. Then I was interrupted by one of the guards, who informed me about a meeting with Lord Sidious, which I accepted. Vader happened to come along, and neither of us looked at each other. The Senate building appeared in sight, and a low-key smirk appeared once again, which Vader noticed. He didn't ask why and walked out of the ship to walk into the entrance of the Senate building.

               When we arrived to enter Lord Sidious office, he was sitting there with a smug look on his face. Vader had no hesitation and asked Lord Sidious about his castle being built on Mustafar. Lord Sidious nodded and accepted Vader's wishes. He turns to me and asks me if I want to stay somewhere permanent, and I turn down the offer.

               Lord Sidious can feel the suppressed feelings between Vader and me and knows very well what happened. Vader was always the one to talk to Lord Sidious if there was something wrong. He said that I was to accompany Vader, and I rolled my eyes. There was no way I would accompany Vader anywhere. I knew, he knew, and he was toying with Vader and me. But it was never up for a discussion.