Tears of Sorrow (Anakin Skywalker x Reader)

Part 25

                From the corner of my eyes, I could see that Vader was smirking. I just hoped I would be going on missions, so I would avoid him at all costs. His voice appeared in my mind, and his voice was more seductive: "What's the matter? Afraid that you will end up falling in love again?" That only angered me more, so I decided to walk out and train to release my anger. He followed me there and got his lightsaber out with a smirk.

                 The red reflected on his face when he ignited his lightsaber and waited for me to ignite mine. accepted the invite in a heartbeat and lunged towards him, causing our lightsabers to clash. Dodging his strikes, which were powerful and steady, he then repeatedly clashed his lightsaber with me while I was being cornered. Then I force-pushed him before he could strike again, and he grinned and lunged towards me in an attempt to lose my focus. It worked because I ended up on the floor while our lightsabers were held against each other.

                 He suddenly stops to tell me to admit defeat because I was on the floor, but I screamed while I got up from the floor and pressed forward. Vader's eyes grew big, knowing he was not ready for what was supposed to happen next. I saw him admitting defeat in his eyes while pressing down on his lightsaber with a grin on his face. He yelled that he would admit defeat, and I smirked.

                 After training, I had a trooper send a message from Lord Sidious. I sensed something off, so I ran into his office. There he was, sitting with a malevolent smile. I slowly walked in to take a seat. "Y/N), I think we need to talk about you and Vader. It has come to my attention that you and Vader can't both be my apprentice." I knew exactly what he was trying to get at. The Rule of Two Sudious knew that I was comprehending what he was saying. "I think we should give Vader a rest, meaning he should be dead."

                 Looking down at my boots, I didn't know what to say. I had to kill Vader, the most feared being in the galaxy, the Lord of the Sith. I have doubts that it would even be possible. Sidious sure wanted Vader alive because of how powerful he really is. He reminded me of those gamblers who always switch sides when the other opponent is stronger. I keep asking myself, "Am I really going to kill him?"

                 Sidious interrupted my thoughts and said he wants it done fast and doesn't want Vader to suspect anything. And so, I had to do it; I had to kill Vader, the last person who was part of the old me. But he never cared anyways, and that thought motivated me to go through with it. I decided to do it for 7 sun cycles to execute the plan. Now that was all I could think about. I started strolling through the halls.

                 Then I saw Vader alone with a necklace out on the balcony. He sensed my presence and motioned for me to be beside him. I reluctantly walked to his side and saw the necklace, which I realized belonged to Padme's. I knew that he was going to guilt-trip me more. That's all he did after her death. I'm trying to make my pain insufferable. But he said nothing and just stared at the necklace. But then he put the necklace away in his pouch. He looked up at the night sky, and his eyes glowed.

            Nothing was said or done, but I felt sadness in him, and the old me wanted to hug and comfort him. That's not who I am anymore, and I will never be her again. "That's your ideology now?", Vader sighed. I didn't even want to reply to him at all and decided to walk out. but he pulled my hand and, with his desperate eyes, said, "Please stay. That moment, I felt conflicted again. No matter how much I get mad at him or have screaming matches with him, he will always have a special place in my heart.

             Tears started to drop from his beautiful eyes as he was leaning in; he kissed me again, but it felt more like a goodbye. I realized that Sudious gave the information to both of us, and that's why Anakin was crying. He thinks I am going to go through with the plan and kill him. Nothing came to mind that would make him feel okay. Through the kiss, I promised him that I would never do such a thing. But in the end, someone had to make that tough decision. We hugged for hours on end. After the whole thing, we both had to pretend that we still had tension between us.

              A couple moon cycles went by, and I have been carrying out Sidious's orders, seeing citizens pleading for their lives, the empire being merciless towards everyone, and seeing governments crumble at the feet of the empire.

              While I was walking through the lower parts of Coruscant, I saw the brutal lifestyle that was forced by the clone wars. Of course I was wearing a disguise because the citizens of Coruscant hated the empire more than the Jedi. I wasn't surprised by that reaction because I would hate the empire if I were forced to live down here as well.

               I'm not saying I love the empire, because clearly my thoughts don't show compassion for it. The thing is, I am way too deep to be pulling back. as I kept walking down the lower part and looked at how affected this civilization is. Yelling began, "Jedi!" That word echoed in my mind. "No." I muttered to myself, but I couldn't stop the urge to stop the Jedi. The man ran past me, trying to get to a safe spot because he was exposed.