Tears of Sorrow (Anakin Skywalker x Reader)

Part 23

            I'm waiting patiently, wanting to hear something from him because I'm afraid of how it's going to affect him. Well, he had nothing to say, and so I just told him to go see Padme in Naboo. I stood up and headed for my ship. I knew I still loved him regardless of what he did. As I was about to enter my ship, I heard Vader call my name. I turned around, and as sudden as it happened, he hugged me and softly whispered, "I apologize for acting coldly towards you. I'm sorry I treated you like nothing happened between us."

           He started sobbing on my shoulder, and I tried to comfort him and replied, "Anakin, you did nothing wrong. You are in pain for the loss of Padme and your child. I took them away from you, and I'm sorry." He hugs me tighter in relief that there is still humanity in me. But it wouldn't be something I want Lord Sidious to be aware of.

            It hurt me to let him go, but I had to. I mentioned to him that I had to return to Lord Sidious before he got suspicious. But I reminded him about Padme and having closure. As I was exiting the apartment with Vader inside, Lord Sidious requested my presence at once. After that, I emotionally prepared for any extreme.

            He headed to the Senate Building, where he was, and landed close before sprinting to his office. entering the office, his eyes piercing into my soul with disappointment. He sighed in an attempt to manipulate me and said, "My dear, I helped you to be your true self, and I see how you have gone soft on Lord Vader. You are better than him. You are the great Sith legend. But you let him push you."

             My anger peaked in offense. The nerve to tell me that he helped me find my true self It was always who I am. I exhaled thoroughly before snapping at him," You never helped me with anything, and treating Vader like nothing is a childish thing to do. He thought of you as a father figure, a role model, and he looked up to you. Instead, you had toyed with him all of these years. It's not that I have gotten soft on him; it's that I have respect for him for pushing through every tough event in his life."

              Lord Sidious Looked displeased that I snapped back at him, and it made me realize I was going to be electrocuted. I screamed in agony, and with that, the traumatic experiences from before appeared in my mind. Then he spoke harshly: "You are not permitted to communicate with Lord Vader until you learn how to behave. Guards send her to her quarters." Every ounce of my body was in tremendous pain, and when guards grabbed my arms, they dragged me out of the office to the hanger and brought me on a shuttle to where my quarters were. They tossed me inside while I winced in pain trying to get up, only to end up falling again.

              The days went by, but the pain was still sharp and painful. Sidious has stationed two guards at my quarter doors. Currently on a cold floor with no food in my system and feeling weak and tired. Almost every time, I was struck with terror when my eyes would be closed, causing me to be sleep deprived. I screamed for food and tried to hit the door with something, but there was no reply.

              The only way I was going to get out of here was to apologize to Sidious and follow his orders. I slammed the door with my weak hand to get the attention of the guards to allow me to talk to Sidious. The door slid open, and without hesitation they grabbed my arms and noted that I would be in the "Emperor's" presence. My legs were dragged on the floor, my head hanging. The one thing that kept me going was my anger for the treatment I was receiving from Sidious.

               There was not a day where I had visions of murdering this monster and taking the throne for myself. Ending the suffering, but let the lost Jedi suffer for being along side something so corrupt and something that has driven so many to the Dark Side. To forbid the human nature of feeling the emotions and instead express them instead of having them suppressed. Then I was buried deep in thought.

                Then questions such as "what could have driven them to the Dark Side?" The Order was blinded and focused on what they thought was the "right thing." The war was the most of their worries, not the Jedi, who served and died for their victories with the outcomes of emotional scars. The one person who came to mind was Anakin. Anakin was a victim of The Order at such a young age, with such high expectations.

                 The order treated him less than he actually was. He was caring, passionate, and headstrong, but most of all, he wanted to see the people he loved happy and alive. When he dealt with these strong emotions of anger and sadness, no one was truly there to help with his despair and the paranoia that haunted him in his sleep. There were times when we would be training and he looked awfully tired, but he brushed it off because it wouldn't matter to him.

                Even though I couldn't be there with him, there was plenty I could have done to help him deal with his emotions in a healthy way instead of listening to the Jedi Masters, who never gave him a chance judging by his actions. Anakin was the light in my life from the beginning and would always be regardless of our status as friends, lovers, etc. He was the only one who had a soul in The Order, and I hope he will come to see that he never has to prove himself because he amazed me.