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Chapter 5 : Back In Time.. Realisation

Harry's POV

"How much work do you expect an eighteen year old to do, urghh, m so tired.. Lou, get your ass out of bed and help me out, now!", I yelled out to Louis..

(15 minutes later)

"Lou, get up", I said, "right now"..
He didn't respond again..

" He doesn't do like that, atleast he calls out to me, and begs for 5 more minutes of his sleep, but today, he was totally silent", tensed, I thought to myself..

I ran up to our bedroom, panting, I took gradual, small steps towards him.. He lay there, sleeping, his beautiful face looked so serene and silent..

"Lou", I called him once again but still no response..

A streak of fear ran down my spine, my face became pale, and sweat started trickling down the side of my forehead..

I extended out my hands to reach onto him, I rubbed my hands over his forehead, again calling out his name.. Shook him to see if he responded, but everything went in vain..

On seeing him there on the bed, laying motionless, made me freeze, i could feel a certain pain, a pain I could feel thinking what if I lost him forever, what if I will never see him again?

I shook him vigorously, then ran down to the kitchen and rushed back with the water jug..

I started sprinkling water on his face, and rubbing his hands simultaneously.. And that's when I could feel his hands respond, his fingers curl, entwining to mine.. And Then there he was, opening his eyes slowly, those beautiful blue eyes, that suddenly seemed so attractive to me.. Suddenly when everything that included him, felt so very important and precious..

"What happened to you? You were unconscious all of a sudden?", I asked him stressed..

"I don't understand, Hazza.",he replied..

"I don't care about anything, right now.. I'll get you freshened up, and get you something to eat.. And then we'll go to see the doctor", I ordered him..

"Not today, Harry.. I don't feel like going out today.. But I'll go out tomorrow, if that's okay..I just want to lie down and rest today ", he said..

He knew, denying him is the last thing I ever did.. And I had to agree, unwillingly.. But the whole day, I sat by his side, rubbed my hands on his forehead, and put him to sleep..

I simply stared at him the whole time, I have never felt this way before, never have been so insecured about his absence from my life.. But today, I was..

I spent the entire night awake, sitting beside him, watching him, as his chest rose up and came down.. Placing my hands on his face, rubbing my thumb through his cheeks, and caressing him by running my hands through his hair..

(The next morning)

I prepared pancakes, made a smiley with whipped cream, and brought it back to Lou..

"Get up Lou, i made you some breakfast", I told him rubbing his forehead..

"Good morning, Hazza", he replied..

That good morning was the best I had ever listened to, gave me a relief, he was fine..

*The door bell rings*

Handing him the breakfast, i went away to open the door.. It was Jo, Louis' mom..

I don't know, but that very moment, I knew there was definitely some super powers given to our moms, by God.. Lou was unwell yesterday and Jo came to see her boy, but she wasn't informed about it, but she knew somehow..

I hugged her, asked her how she was doing.. But she looked worried and stressed, "Is Louis fine?" was all she asked and I took her to him and left them alone in the room..

I sat alone on the couch, while they were having there private time.. And after a while both of them came down, Louis was dressed, and I knew, a strict mom was taking her boy to see the doctor, finally..

But that was not what caught my eye, but the packed luggage bag drew my attention..

"Where was he going? Why? Why is Jo taking him away? ", I enquired my mind..

But before I could ask, Jo spoke..

" You know Harry, how much I missed my boy, and that's why I came down here, and seems like it was worth it, my boy is unwell and I need to take care of him.. I am taking him home for a week and I'll drop him off next Wednesday.. ", she said continuously without even pausing for a while..

"But I too take care of him, loneliness will haunt me down without him in the house.. Don't take him away, please..", my mind begged to her, although it was for just a week..

We have been away for months before when we had breaks from our tours but never have I felt this way, seemed like half of me was going away..

All I could do was nod to every word Jo said, even though my heart refused to..

I just stared at Louis, helplessly, expecting him to understand that I didn't want him to go, and somehow stay back..

But he didn't stay back, he just hugged me and said Goodbye..

I hugged him even tighter, realising that this time I had my entire world wrapped up around my arms, I had my Lou in my arms, but the Goodbye this time was the hardest..

I stood there, watching him go, and unknowingly I had my arms stretched towards him, my heart felt so heavy, I didn't want to realise it, I have been avoiding my feelings this whole time..

I was in 'Love' with my 'Best friend'..