Gabb's
I'm walking alone habang tumatama sa paa ko ang alon. I just need to breathe, time to think. Nang makaramdam ako ng pagod ay naupo ako sa tabing dagat habang pinagmamasdan ang mga tao sa paligid.
My tears started to fall when I remember what Frances said, I wish it wasn't true. I wish it was a dream. Para hindi na ako nasasaktan ng ganito, wala akong lakas ng loob para kausapin sya. I'm scared, there are too many what if's in my mind.
What if hindi na ako?
What if my home found her new home?
What if she stops loving me?
What if she got tired of loving me?
Paano ako?
"Ang lalim nyan ah?" Napalingon ako sakanya and she sat beside me.
I smiled a bit at saka ko muli binaling ang tingin ko sa iba.
"Bakit ka mag isa dito, where's Ate Ella?" She asked.
"She's with the Ate's." Sambit ko.
"You didn't answer my question." She uttered.
I looked at her. "Bakit ka mag-isa dito?" She added.
"Hindi naman ah. Nandito ka, kaya dalawa na tayo." Saad ko at sinamaan naman nya ako ng tingin.
"Ewan ko sayo, Gabo!" Inis nyang sambit at akmang aalis na kaya hinawakan ko ang braso nya.
"Sandali, can you stay for awhile Coleen?" I uttered.
"Tamo, aasar pa kasi eh. Ano bang problema?" Sambit nya at tumingin ng diretso sakin.
"Coleen, what if hindi na nya ako mahal?" I said and her eyes widened.
"Paano mo naman nasasabi yan? Nagiba na ba treatment nya sayo, cold na ba ganon?" Pagtatanong nya at umiling naman ako.
"Hindi, still the same. Pero, what if ayaw nya lang ako saktan? What if napipilitan nalang sya?" Sambit ko at ramdam ko namang nanggigilid na luha ko.
"Alam mo ikaw ang negative mo mag isip." She said.
"Coleen, I can't. K-kahit anong gawin kong paglilibang sa sarili ko, n-naiisip ko pa din yung nalaman ko." My tears betrayed me. Coleen cupped my face and wiped my tears.
"H-hey. Tell me, I'm here." She uttered.
"Frances told me everything..." She's looking at me straight habang hawak nya pa din ang cheeks ko. "She saw Ella and Gia, k-kissing."
Patuloy pa din ang pagbuhos ng luha ko, kaya naman niyakap nya ako ng mahigpit.
"Shuushhh. I'm here, Gabrielle..." She caressing my back at mas yumakap ako ng mahigpit sakanya.
"All you need is talk to her." She uttered. "What i---"
"Stop worrying about your how's and what if's. Take risk, hold on and trust your love for her." She cutted me off.
Ella's
"Ba, saan ba tayo pupunta?" I asked Gia, but she just smiled at me.
"Samahan mo lang ako maglakad lakad." She uttered at napatango nalang ako.
Habang naglalakad kami hindi ko maiwasan na hindi tumingin sakanya, she's staring at me.
