Adopted by Alex Gaskarth

pineapples & patrick

TRIGGER WARNING . IF YOU GET TRIGGERED EASILY PLEASE DONT READ .

"reporting live from hazels bedroom door , I Alex Gaskarth am about to see it for the first time ." Alex said in a weird reporter voice .

he opens the door and I gasp

greenish/blue walls and a big black bed in the middle of the back wall with an Adam elmakias pillow case . a small desk sat next to it with a mac book on it . I turned and saw a bathroom door and another door which lead to a balcony .
"OH M GIZZLE IS THIS FORIZLE . it's like my own pineapple , Patrick right next door awe awe awe ." I squeal

everyone bursts out laughing and I remember I'm surrounded by people .

"awe shit." I mutter

"you've got quite the mouth there " Vic says

"try me ."

"I'm just going to leave you to unpack and such . we are or ding pizza , you like pizza right ?" rian says

"WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND DOES NOT LIKE PIZZA. THATS A CRIME AGAINST FUCKIN NATURE . GOSH OH GOLLY HOT TAMALE ." I scream

"don't make the ginger angry ." jack whispered to rian

"What was that jack " I smiled sweetly before running and tackling him to the ground .

after that episode , they left and I went to unpacking

I hung my few clothes in the huge closet , like my shit barely used up an 8th of it . I put my shoe box of stuff under my bed and wedged my notebook between the mattresses . I set my guitar on my bed and decided to take a quick shower .

I stripped and looked into the mirror . you're disgusting . ugly . worthless . your own mother didn't even want to stay around you .at the moment I wished I had the control people with eating disorders had . I wish I could starve myself . but I'm weak . I see the scars that line my body . from my hip to my knee nothing but ugly scars . fat ugly scars . I grab the blade I kept in my pocket . I watched it dance in my hand yearning for it to be pressed against my skin waiting for it to take my pain away .you know when you got hurt when you were little and someone would say well how about I hit this or something so you don't think about it . self harm is the same concept . I cut to distract from the other pain .the pain I feel inside . I slowly drag the cool metal across my hip and watch blood start to beed up . I repeated this over and over and over , just trying to feel something, anything . I may act fun and happy but honestly I'm a disaster waiting to happen . I quickly shower and throw in some basket ball shorts and a nirvana tee . then I sit on my bed and start to set up my laptop . I then made a Twitter and an Instagram and a tumblr. Alex called me down stairs and I asked

"can I have some social media ?"

"no, I don't think your ready and .." Alex starts

"to late I already made some ." I cut him off

"we'll then." he laughed

we all sat and ate pizza and Alex brought up the horrible subject

"so haze what do you want for your birthday ."

"when's her birthday ?" rian gasped

"how old will she be ?" zack said

"can we have a party?" jack asks

"oooo can I come ?" Vic asks

"okay , I want a tattoo , my birthday is on Halloween , I'll be 15, sure jack you can have a party but I have no friends, Vic sure you can come ."

"A TATTOO ?!" they all gasp

"I mean I already have one . so..."

"WHAT ?!" Alex said

"I wanna see I wanna see!" squealed jack

I raised up my left side of my shorts to reveal my om&m tattoo . (chapter image .)

"I gotta tell Austin about this holly shit ." Vic said

"I got it done with a fake ID for my last birthday . the dude knew I wasn't 18 , I could tell , but I guess he didn't care ." I laughed

"what do you want for your next one ." Alex asked

"a semi colon . (;)" I said

"why ? " they all looked confused

"a semi colon is used when an author could have chosen to end a sentence but doesn't . this is not your end but merely a new beginning ." I said

"I love it ." Vic smiled

"me too ." jack smiled

"okay , okay you can get it ."

"YES 10 POINT FOR GRIFFINDOR " I shout

"what a character we are today haze ." Alex laughed .