OREGON BROTHERS 1: Exil Johhans - LOSE MY LOVE

KABANATA 15

JOHHANS is very attentive to me after the doctor take it's leave. He just won't let me out of the bed. He acts like a servant that ready to please his lord.

I lived in luxury but my dad didn't  raised me like I can have everything without doing something about it nor be a lazy children. And that's what exactly what Johhans was doing, it's been a week now but my barefoot didn't have a chance to step on the floor. For pete sake, Johhans is treating me like I am an incapable person.

I'll give it to him, he really is a caring husband but I think he went too far? I just have a laceration, my goodness. There's nothing to make a fuss. We are husband and wife now, the things that cause my laceration is an obligation we need to fulfill but if he's going to act like this everytime I got one. Oh my gosh, I think I would definitely live a celibate life. Johhans is just so overreacting husband.

But, on the other side, I love how he takes care of me. His treatment is overwhelming that I just want to rely on his shoulder forever. This is how he makes me feel, he makes me feel so special. A vulnerable crystal that can easily penetrated so he's giving his all just to make sure my safety.

My parents find a great man to entrust their daughter. At last I can say that I am grateful because of that.

"How are you, you feel good?" Johhans asked me when he entered the room.

I just got out of my reverie because of his appearance. I didn't dare to answer his question but I stretch my arms to Johhans. I want him to hug me and join me in our bed.

"You loved to be babied." He notice to what I accustomed to do.

In span of one week on the bed, I always do this. Stretching my arms to Johhans so he will crawl to our bed and hug me, then he'll lay out body and enclose it and feel the intimacy our skin gives to one another.

"I am your baby." I stated while doing what they called puppy eyes.

Just like the previous days Johhans gives me a delighted smile,  I was also infected by his smile that my lips curves too. He then crawl to our bed and hug my waist. This time he made me lay on my bed while he's on top of me. I quickly respond by encircling my arms around his neck.

"I still can't believe that we are okay now Raia." There's a hint of felicity in his voice. It's makes me smile bigger.

"I love you." I just said.

Honestly, everytime Johhans open this kind of topic, I can't fine a right words to express my feelings to him. I can't really perceive a proper words to describe how much I love him. There's just no word for me to make him believe that I really do love him. He's still doubting but I will do everything just to calm Johhans mind. He deserve a peace of mind. He deserve to know that he's the only man I want for my lifetime.

My ex is now out of the line. He will never be my choice because Johhans is my husband. He's not only my husband, he is my first love, and my last love. I just hope that I can make him feel that. I want him to have an assurance to this relationship.

"Elpízo na to ennoeís, agápi mou." He said it so dearly. It's like music to my ears, the way he say it, it tickles my ears but even though I don't understand what he just say. I just felt an unsatisfaction to my heart, it's like he's saying soulful words. I'm oddly feeling  that what he just said is not really dearly as what its sounds like.

"Translate it Johhans." Malambing kong pakiusap.

I want to know what he just said. I really wanted to know it's meaning.

"I love you more Raia." After almost a minute, he answered.

Napakurap naman ako sa tinuran nito. Pakiramdam ko hindi naman iyon ang punto niya sa sinabi niya kanina. Napabusangot naman ako na ikinangiti ng isa. He's not saying what he really said in a foreign language for me. He should just said it in tagalog or english! Ano ba yan, ang unfair.