the notes [m.c.]

five- they were early

so the pic is of what I believe Devon looks like so dis is Devon k bye
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Ashton got off of me and started to unbutton his jeans when his phone started ringing crazily. text after text, they kept coming.

I wondered who would be so persistent in trying to get a hold of Ashton. I looked over at his phone and saw what seemed to be 100 texts coming from the same person. some chick named "Steph."

why are there hearts after her name? why is she trying to get a hold of Ashton? WHY HAVE I NOT HEARD OF THIS STEPH?

"uh...Ash?" I ask as he pulled off his pants.

"babe, I'm taking them off as fast as I can. they aren't called skinny jeans for no reason," Ashton answers giggling as he struggles with his pants.

"no. ash. who. is. Steph?" I ask snatching up his phone quickly and practically shoving it into his face.

"um...uh...well...a friend!" Ashton screeches trying to grab his phone out of my hand. I pull it back quickly enough, so he isn't able to get it back.

"well, 'babe I need you right now,' 'Daddy come over,'I'll do what I did last night.' WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT ASHTON? WHAT THE FUCK WENT DOWN LAST NIGHT? YOU SAID IT WAS JUST A KISS. STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME AND TELL ME THE DAMN TRUTH FOR ONCE. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU AND THIS BITCH DONE IT? HUH? DO YOU EVEN FUCKING LOVE ME?" I scream at the top of my lungs, consumed by rage. all he's been doing is lying to me this whole damn time! he's never loved me! three years. I wasted three years on this dick.

"Devon! calm down! just-" Ashton says taking hold of my arm.

I jerk away from him screaming at the top of my lungs, "DO NOT TELL ME TO CALM THE FUCK DOWN."

Ashton looks scared to death and backs away a couple of feet. "devon, I'm sorry. it was a drunk mistake. I should've told you right after it happened. I tried calling you. after you didn't pick up, Steph stole my phone. things got out of hand. Devon I'm really fucking sorry. I do love you. of course I love you," Ashton says, with obvious tears in his eyes.

"leave Ashton," I stuttered, basically sobbing into my hands. I turned away from him, so he was facing my back.

"Devon, please," Ashton said putting his hand on my shoulder. I could tell he was crying. all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around this fluffy haired boy and tell him I'm sorry but I couldn't. I need to stand my ground.

"leave! Ashton we're over. we are done," I scream, pushing him off me. by now we're both sobbing, but I couldn't give into him.

Ashton turned and started walking out of my room when he whispered, I could tell he was trying not to burst out into loud tears, "im sorry, devon. I will get you back. I love you, Devon Hamilton. I love you so much."

"here's your damn phone," I say a bit softer, tossing his phone to him, "get your things and leave."

after Ashton left I burst out into sobs. I laid under my covers shaking, realizing I had just ended the relationship with the love of my life. he cheated on me. he threw us away. at least I haven't actually done it with Michael!

michael. he could help me. he can love me. just like I used to love Ashton. he can get me over Ashton.

I know I have feelings for Michael. I'll text him.

Devon: Michael. Ashton had sex with another girl last night. we broke up. can you come over later? please?

a few minutes later Michael texted me back. it was hard to read with all the tears in my eyes.

Michael: well fuck. of course I will. do you want me to come over now?

Devon: no. I have to go take care of something. I'll text you when okay? we can watch movies and cuddle.

Michael: okay:) sounds great. call me or text me when you need me. I love you, Devon.

at least I know Michael's got me. he's always here for me. I...i think I do love him.

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I got into my car, not knowing where to go. as I was driving around town, I settled on the library.

it's become my favorite place to be alone. I know that I should just come tomorrow, when my "note pal" will have written back, but maybe they will have written back early.

I walked into the library, saying hello to the sweet lady behind the front desk.

there weren't many people, as I could see, but that was normal. I walked to the dusty desk I sat at before and put my bag down. a little girl ran past me, making me smile.

I decided I should go look at the book where the notes were to be exchanged, to see if they wrote back. whoever they are.

I scanned the shelves, finally finding "Great Expectations." after opening it, I found a different piece of paper than the one I had placed in there with my note on it. they were early.

dear note pal,
nice to see my note idea was appealing. I just got into a sticky situation so I came to the library, like I always do. I'm not sure what to write in these notes, so I'll ask questions.
do you go to High Hills High School? what's your favorite color? single or taken??
so yeah there you go:)
-note pal

well I guess that was sweet. I wonder who this really is...

after looking around for a piece of paper, a wrote down my note, trying to get everything off my mind.

dear note pal,
we should just write every day.... I got into pretty deep shit too. twins. we both come to the library when we're frustrated. hA. so, to answer your questions, yeah I go there, do you? purple. and um, it's complicated... what about you? I realize I haven't even asked you yet so, are you a girl or boy? lol well bai
-note pal

after figuring my note was fine, I stuck it into the book again, placing it onto the shelf.

I grabbed my bag and walked to the balcony in the back of library. the balcony was one of the reasons I love the library. barely anyone knows about it, and the view is gorgeous.

I went out there and sat down putting my hands over my face.
(((cue picture from the beginning)))

as I was sitting there I heard someone stepping out onto the balcony too. I looked up and saw him.
I was confused so I simply said, "Michael?"

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OMG I LOVE THIS CHAPTER AJDBSKSNFKDDKSKDBSLAKAKnaonazka
DASHTON FIGHT
MICHAELS SO SWEET
AND WHAAAAAAT
HES AT THE LIBRARY???????
WOAAAAHH
HAHAHAHAHAAH IM MAGIC
K LOVE YOU GUYS
BYE