I Don't Want To Go Back

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The next day was Monday. I was really stressed when our prof announced that the exam’s results will be out this Monday. It’s not the licensure exam yet, but it still has the percent for our final grades. I just couldn’t drop the scores.

I was panicking at the same time shaking when I’m waiting for our prof to reveal the scores. We’re currently inside our class room, halata rin ang kaba ng bawat isa sa amin kaya mas kinakabahan lang ako. We’re silently waiting for the results, currently inaayos pa raw ni Sir ‘yung score board.

I was silently praying when he said it’s prepared. I opened my eyes and looked at the projector; the exel was there with our names and the scores.

Nakatutok ang mata ko sa presentation dahil mabilis iyong iniiscroll pababa ng prof namin, at dahil naka-alphabetically format iyon ayon sa apelyedo namin, wala pa ‘yung akin.

Maan -    86
Mabini -     89
Macasilio -    76
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Macaraeg -       97

I covered my mouth using my palm when I saw my score. Just.. thank you Lord. I sighed in relief and silently thanked Him.

After our prof showed our scores he then spoke, “You did your best, mga anak. Just think that this is just a practice test for the MTLE, hindi pa ito ang katapusan ng mundo kung bumagsak kayo, okay?” MTLE is the Medical Technologist Licensure Exam, it is the MedTech Board Examination.

But still if bumagsak kami malaki ang kawalan no’n sa grades namin. Some in our class dropped this exam pero he’s right.. kahit bumagsak dito makakapag-take pa rin naman ng MTLE. 

After that wala na rin namang lecture. Our prof just told us to get ready for the licensure exam the next next month. We still have two more months to review. Well, we, MedTech students have five months to review.

May katagalan pa naman and Board Exam pero pinaghahanda na kami. Wala na ring classes dahil pinagf-focus nga kami para sa licensure exam next next month.

Wala ngang klase, reviewers naman kaharap namin.

I don’t have plans before the licensure exams. Our profs are telling us that we can go and get some summer job na connected sa course namin if possible, for experience na rin. I will see if I could do summer job, since i need to review foe the exam, but ayon nga for experience rin 'yun. I’ll think about it. 

My phone beep and saw Dana’s message from Instagram.

elle.dnlyn: ilan score po sa finals ):

My forehead creased when I saw the sad emoticon on her message.

sybl.bxlla: what’s with the emoticon?

elle.dnlyn: 97 lang ako sa exam ):

The fuck, 97 out of 100 and still she’s sad, by the way, she’s Dana.

sybl.bxlla: don’t talk to me

elle.dnlyn: huy, bastusan ah. Ilan nga score mo?

sybl.bxlla: 97 ):

I chuckled, gago.

elle.dnlyn: weird pala kapag may sad emoticon ka sa message hehehe anyways, cheer up dude, sana masaya ka sa score mo ;p

sybl.bxlla: ano nanamang nasinghot mo?

elle.dnlyn: si red.

The fudge..

sybl.bxlla: i dont know you, bye.

I closed the app and turned my phone off. I stood up from the bench that I am sitting in, since tumambay lang ako sandali paglabas ko ng USTFM (University of Santo Tomas Faculty of Medicine). I’m thinking on what to do or what I should do today. Kapag wala akong magawa nagiging impulsive ako sa mga desisyon ko sa buhay, kaya kailangan ko ng bagay na p’wedeng magawa ngayong araw. Dahil baka mamaya bigla ko nalang tawagan ni Kylo at saka yayain siyang mag-date.