Raekkuno Stories

Realization (Secret Admirer #5)

Rae's POV:

I turned over on top of my guest bed and noticed the half of the letter that I still had from my fight with Imane yesterday. I looked at it again and felt myself getting angry at the words in the poem. I unfortunately got the top half of the poem, meaning that anytime I look at it, I see all of the romantic and poetic words that Sykkuno used to describe Imane. Oh what I would give to have the words describe me instead. But we don't always get what we want, and as such I had to deal with the fact that these words were directed towards Imane instead.

Hello,

It's me again, saying hello to you like this for the last time. I think it's about time I reveal myself to you. I'm just gonna drop all the cringe and poetic stuff that I usually write to you, so I'll just straight up say it. If it's not obvious already, I have a deep crush on you. Ever since I met you properly, I've admired your fiery personality, your adorable kindness, and your absolutely captivating beauty. And I know you must get that a lot. I mean, hello, it's you we're talking about! Believe me though, unlike all of those other shallow and horny guys, I actually like you for who you are.

I know sometimes it can be tough to admit it, I would know a lot about that, but you really are an attractive person, and there really are people out there who like you for you, but none more than me. I've enjoyed every moment that we've played together, and it really does feel extremely comforting to talk t-

I couldn't take it anymore. I crumpled up the half of the letter and tore it up into tiny bits and pieces. I hated it. I couldn't deal with reading the words and thoughts that Sykkuno had towards Imane. I didn't even understand his attraction in the first place! It's not like the two of them are all that close anyways!

Maybe that's just it though. Maybe I'm just too close to him and now he only sees me as a sister or something. It all makes sense for why he fell for her instead of me. Imane was never that close to him when I'm too close to him. She's always been nice and soothing to him whenever we played while I just yell at him and be all obnoxious and stuff. And who could forget that she was infinitely more beautiful than I ever will be. It's no wonder he fell for her looking back on it.

I should really just give up. He wants a hot, kind, smart, boss bitch woman like Imane, and I was none of those things. I always went on and on about how I'm never gonna have kids, and how I was gonna die alone, what was I thinking?! Of course he's gonna look at that and not wanna have a future with me! And to think that I actually thought that us hanging out in calls privately for hours on end recently actually meant something more, nope! I was always just a friend at best...

I rolled over onto my stomach and pressed my face into the pillow. I felt the tears well up in my eyes as it finally sank in that Sykkuno and I were never gonna get together. It was always just a lost cause, he always had his eye out for Imane, and how all of the nights I spent lying awake thinking about him were all for absolutely nothing.

I cried in the pillow, soaking both it and my cheeks in tears. There was nothing I could do to change this reality. Sykkuno and Imane are in love with each other and I was a fool to thing I could help that, or for thinking differently in the first place. Hell, they're both in her room having the time of their lives right now aren't they?

Sykkuno's POV:

I was leaning against the wall right at the foot of the stairs, scrolling through Twitter to pass the time, when I suddenly felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned, only to see Poki standing there with a bright smile on her face. I smiled back and wondered what was it that she wanted.