Lost & Found.

Chapter 19

NINETEEN....

It was currently 7pm and I waiting on Jeremy to get to the house. I practiced my speech over and over and I was ready. I needed to know where he stood so I could plan my next steps. I glanced at my phone finding it weird that he hadn't called or texted all day. I dropped my phone on the couch when I heard the bell ring. I just about flew to the door and pulled it open. I smiled when his face came into sight but instantly regretted it when I was met with a scowl. He brushed passed me and into my apartment.

"Well hello to you too" I said closing the door and making my way to where he stood. 

"You're pregnant" He said barely audibly, I stopped walking, My feet plastered to the floor as if glued. My heartbeat so fast and my hands got sweaty

"How did you know" 

"Its true" He questioned running his hands through his curly top 

"Sherell informed me because I had requested you to be on my service for a surgery I am performing next week" He said 

"That's what I was planning to tell you" I said nervously 

"Is it mine" He questioned and cocked my head to the side frowning at him

"Of course it is" I dead panned and went to sit on one of my bar stools near the kitchen island.

"Shit, this is bad Tazeema" He said walking to my center table and taking seat on the edge of the wooden table. 

"What about the plan B" He said looking up at me 

"I forgot to take it that day, with rushing you out of the house when Travis was on the way and my busy work schedule, It skipped my mind".

"How the fuck did you forget that" He yelled and flinched as the sound echoed through my apartment. I am sure my nosy neighbors are tuned in for this episode of my crazy life.

"Don't you dare yell at me. I'm on the birth control and I did not think I would be the one percent that could get pregnant on it. Trust and believe that this is not what I wanted. I am not a child. I never have sex without protection even on the pill. So don't sit there and look at me with that face like I did this all on my own" I said standing up from the bar stool. I could not pinpoint what he was thinking at that moment. His face seemed like he was going through a rush of emotions.

"You don't understand, this is really bad" He said sadness evident in his voice and face.

"You keep saying that, explain it to me" I said walking over to him and standing right in front of him. He looked up at me then pulled me closer, wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his head on my stomach. I hesitated but reach for his head, massaging his scalp.

"My father and Elijah Elswood started the practice right out of school. Eli Practiced for a couple of years and decided to retire and dip more into the business side of things. So he became my fathers silent partner. He owns half of the hospital , probably more now since my fathers passing. My dad pulled major weight while he was alive and I tried to continue after his passing but I was so young and untrusted by the older board members. They all threatened to dropout until Eli showed up again. My fathers legacy continues because of him. I owe him so much and that's why I have stayed with Lily for so long. Its almost as if its payment for what he has done. After my father passed away, I tried breaking up with Lily. Eli threatened to leave and restart elsewhere with the board members if I made that decision again. So you see I'm stuck for life Taz" He said looking up at me. I felt physically exhausted so I released his hands from my waist and took a seat next to him on my center table.

" I haven't been happy for years, I'm exhausted. I love Lily because she has been in my life for so long and we've practically grown up together but I am not in love with her and I haven't been since college. Hence the long engagement. I hate my life so much.  Here I am finally with the woman of my dreams, a woman I have fallen in love with and I cant even have her. My family depends on me to continue my fathers legacy and for right now Eli Elswood plays a big part in that.  The board members have finally taken a liking to me but I still need Eli" He said looking at me with unfallen tears evident in his eyes, I sighed deeply staring at the white wall in front of me.