Lost & Found.

Chapter 28

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT....

JEREMY'S POV

I helped Tazeema put the twins in her bed once we got to Kravitz house. 

"Do they always sleep in your bed" I whispered not wanting to wake the kids up as we tiptoed out of the room. She carefully shut the door to the room and gestured for me to follow her; we walked to the dining area and sat in the chairs. I sat opposite her hoping to have the conversation we both knew was pending.

"Only when we are away from home" she said randomly answering the question I forgot I asked. 

"South Africa right" I said and she  nodded "So what's the plan here Taz" I asked causing her to sigh heavily

"I don't know Jeremy, I have so much going on for me back home. I cant just up and leave" She  replied 

"You can have that here too. Taz I really want to be in my children's lives"

"Well its currently their summer break, we can always extend our trip till school starts back up" she said looking down at her hands resting in her lap.

"Summer? You are not understanding,  I want to be in my kids lives, I want to be there for them on a daily, I want my family back" I yelled and she remained silent staring at me with her jaw dropped.

"I know what you are thinking; Lily right. I will tell her as soon as I see her; before you returned, Lily and I's marriage had already imploded and ran its course. I already had my lawyers print the necessary papers for divorce, I was only waiting for my plan for the hospital to be put into effect and I'm almost there Taz. The thing is I don't even care about that anymore, I don't want to wait any longer for my happiness, I want my children, I want you baby.  I promise I will do right by you and the kids baby, Give me a chance mama" I said pushing my chair back and kneeling in front of her

"Get up Jeremy" She said attempting but failing at pulling me up and off my knees. I got up taking the seat next to he her and turning towards her.

" I am thinking about the kids Jeremy, Myself, our lives back home. For years I had wished for this reunion, I fantasied about it, only because deep down I never thought it would happen. Now its all happening so fast, I don't even know where to begin. Of course I want you and the kids to have a relationship, that has and will always be my top wish but it is a complicated situation because of distance. I know your family has so much influence in this city and I don't want a judge presiding over our kids which is why I, we need time to figure this out" She finished and I nodded as what she said did make sense. Everything is not just going to fall in place. We both had things in over lives that needed to be situated first before our next chapter in life.

"I hear you, lets rest this here and pick this up some other time. I will leave so you can get some rest" I said standing up, she got up as well and we both stood in silence. I made the first move walking closer to her until I was a mere inch away from her. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes then her eyes fell to my lips; she wet her lips swiping her tongue across them. I wanted so much to bend my head and take her soft lips in mine but I settled for a kiss on her forehead. She sucked in air very audibly and I backed away from her.  I longed for this woman, I needed her in my life, I had to leave at that moment because I knew if I stayed any longer I would take her upstairs and shower her with so much pent up emotions sexually.

I slowly walked backward not taking my eyes of her and she too maintained eye contact. I knew Tazeema all too well and I knew what she was thinking. I felt the exact same way but I knew that us having sex would further complicate our existing predicament. I stopped half way to the door  and finally broke our eye contact by looking down at my hands.