Lost & Found.

Chapter 17

SEVENTEEN....

"Tazeema Tazeema, Ms. Naidoo, are you ok" Sherell stood in front of me snapping her fingers

"Ok I'm guessing this isn't good news" She continued as I stared at her speechless

"Alright then that's got to be a yes, ok we are getting somewhere. I'm telling you this now because per protocol this limits your patients quantity and work load for the safety of the patients as well as the unborn child and you"

"How? I haven't had any symptoms, I'm on birth control and I still take a morning after pill after unprotected sex. Not that I have unprotected sex frequently but I'm just that paranoid. Maybe its wrong, They switched the samples, Lets try again" I said in a frantic

"Ok we can do that at the lab downstairs. Or you can go somewhere you feel comfortable. You can have the day off Tazeema 

" I mean I forgot to take the pill one time but I'm on birth control, I cant be pregnant right" I said looking up at Sherell. She just stared sympathetically at me 

"Take the day off love" Sherell said. I nodded and quickly rose from the chair.

" I have to go, thank you" I said, Sherell ushered me to the door and whispered a take care while I wondered off aimlessly

I walked out of my gynecologists office harboring so many emotions. I went through the stages of grief all at once. I am with child, a child of a man set to be married soon. Shit just got even more complicated.  I drove home in complete silence . My hands were practically shaking on the steering wheel. I thought about everything, how to break the news to Jeremy, His reaction, Lily, Travis, Kravitz, China who had warned me about how difficult my situationship with Jeremy could get. Myself and the child I was carrying who didn't choose any of this. As soon I closed the door to my apartment, I slid to the floor and sobbed uncontrollably. I needed to talk to my best friend. I dug through my purse my eyes blurred from tears searching for my phone. I dialed Kravitz number as soon as I found the phone. It rang a few times and she answered I couldn't even put words together, I just cried.

"I'm on my way" was all she said and hung up.

About fifteen minutes later the bell rang. I couldn't even move. I remained on the floor crying. I knew who it was as soon as the keys jangled at the door.  The door flew open and Kravitz ran to my side and gave me the biggest hug. She said nothing and just hugged me till I calmed down.

"I'm pregnant Krav" I said hoarsely 

" Really " She whispered, I nodded not wanting to leave her warm embrace. She sighed 

"Its gonna be ok" was all she said and it that moment that calmed all my worries.

Kravitz stayed the night in the living room and I in my room. She occasionally checked in on me throughout the night. I laid awake all night restless. I finally got up in the middle of the night for some water. Kravitz was asleep on the couch. I tiptoed not to wake her. While downing my second cup of water my phone flashed on the kitchen counter. I reached over and grabbed it. I had a couple of missed calls and messages most of whom were from Jeremy. I listened to my voicemail from Jeremy

Hey, I just want to make sure you're ok. I heard you left work sick again today please call me when you can. Umm I'm getting paged for surgery now, I'll check back in later. Feel better baby. 

He left two more wondering why I wasn't answering the call and a text saying he came over and Kravitz insisted I was resting. He brought me soup from Duvae. I turned my phone off and tiptoed back into my room.

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China sat speechless in my living room. I called her the next morning right after phone call to Sherell who cashed in my vacation days. I was allowed off from work for a week. Kravitz left early in the morning for work.