when my lighter drops

no please

i would give so much,

sell my soul to the devil, be like the rest,

live through the worst and what's yet to come.

just so i can see myself from your perspective.

nimble on my feet ready to run before i get spotted,

hidden between others taller than me.

their words just become mindless noise to me.

my eyes focused in front of me, yet they're so blurred?

do i look uneven, do i have bad posture, do i stand oddly,

are my eyes simple, are they picturesque, can i be yours,

Is my height alright, am I skinny enough, have I got the perfect persona, am I 'too innocent', am I a slut, am I charismatic and am I enough?

thoughts become one, all together moulding quickly with others over time, knitting together like a blanket.

please let me know when you've had enough,

my mind will stop for you but for me it's only just started.

a simple white lie stops my heart from beating.

my breath will be caught.

my lungs will deflate and you will disappear.

because you never knew my thoughts, you're a shattered piece of my soul i imagine when i see my reflection.

a piece of dust sat alone on the glass before I blow you away with a gust of wind and the stage light is turned off.