when my lighter drops

feel

after we said that we were just friends

why when his hand slid across mine did it feel so electric.

clarifying that we would be in each other lives forever,

why did that eye contact feel more than what was said?

we said we would just be friends but his hug,

his hug feels tighter and his breath alone

dancing along my neck which makes me feel euphoric.

he understands, doesn't he?

if he didn't he wouldn't have caressed my mouth,

locking his lips on mine.

just like he did with his hand along mine some time ago.

closing my eyes to keep it warm inside.

he understood but then again

i'm now the one sat in a pool of my own blood,

the red symbol of my love soaking the wooden floor.

all from his gunshot which hit me in my chest.

after he left me with the ghost of his mouth

dancing along mine.

my entire body, my mind, my skin.

completely undressed.

-x