when my lighter drops

7

Why do I feel the need to be liked by everyone?

such a selfish reflection.

I want to be the person that looks beautiful, is so kind, people like and think they don't hate.

I want to be something- someone you can fall in love with.

i don't want to be the one that gets told she is ugly, mean, too loud, angry or scary for 'jokes'

I won't be the person to sit here and be belittled, degraded.

They use things about me to prove points of weakness.

try to make me feel so small and make me feel so sad.

I give in every time.

only you hold me like water in your hands, but we all know we can't keep it all.

in a matter of time- seconds all that will be left is a damp residu.