when my lighter drops

lies

"Suffocate me, that's all you do" that's all i can manage to stutter and give to him as an answer.

"How do i suffocate you tell me darling? Please enlighten me on the 'only thing i do'" he speaks up with a powerful voice, calm and steady ready for action.

"That's not all you do. You do so much it hurts my heart. I think about who i fell in love with and who you are now, they are not the same person." finding the courage i have left i say.

"I'm the same person who you fell in love with, who you are in love with. You're talking utter bullshit. I've only been nice to you and given you the world." my partner slowly starts to shout.

I leave my words on the floor. He overpowers me once more. I can try again another time.

"I'm sorry, you're right." The lie that I can't remember being true falls again, being the glue of my relationship I'm trying to break.