Chapter 24
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As I laid there completely useless attached to machines and god knows what else, I couldn't help but wonder why Dan seemed so upset about the idea of two children.. All I felt was pure love for these babies growing inside of me. When Nick told me, of course I was a little shocked and kind of over-whelmed but what could he expect?
I didn't know I was pregnant. We only done it once! The first time ever.. My deflowering made me pregnant, but my god was it amazing. The way Dan's skin felt beneath my fingertips, the way he just knew how to touch me, to make me feel on fire!
+Now that's enough of that Sara, stop thinking of those rude thoughts!+
Huh? When did you come back? It seems like ages? I thought to myself rather confused. It has been ages hasn't it? I honestly can't remember, I mean a lot has happened in the last 48 hours.
Come to think of it, everything has gone far too fast! I'm going to be a mother and I haven't even been with Dan a month! Is my life just going to be like this forever more? Just dramatic all the time?! How on earth am I going to keep my sanity when nothing ever stops!
The only thing that seems to be playing on my mind is the feeling that this is just the beginning. This whole new life of me, it's just the beginning. If I thought this was bad, what's coming for me in the future? I need to speak with Dan, this is just unreal.
How can everything change within a blink of an eye?
+It's not within a blink of an eye Sara, don't be ridiculous! It's been a few hours. I don't understand what you are so upset and annoyed about. We are carrying 2 pups! You should be excited like me! We are so rare, its fantastic!+
My voice seemed to be more excited than me, I am excited. I just feel quite miserable at the same time. I always dreamed as a girl that a man would come and save me from the life I had and that we'd be happy! I dreamed that we would walk on a beach with our toes squidging in the sand, walking along the shore line hand in hand as the sun set!
"I wanted romance, pfft, who am I kidding? I do want romance!" I spoke aloud, forgetting my inner conversation. Christ how embarrassing, I bet Nick isn't too far either. He probably heard me and I probably sound ridiculous.
How many people do you know just randomly come out with something like that? I can tell you. No-one, nada, nil, none!
I sighed inwardly. How on earth can today get any worse. The only good thing that's happened today is that I'm carrying the two most precious babies in the world. They are what matters most to me, if Dan can't accept that there are two, then he isn't accepting me either! I'll just raise them by myself.
I couldn't help but praise the amount of courage that thought made me feel. But then again, I knew I was lying to myself. I would feel lost without Dan now that I have him. I honestly can't imagine my life and our children's lives without him in it.
+Sara, will you please stop shutting me off just as we start having a conversation?+
Oh god, sorry voicy! I didn't mean too, I'm just panicking. What if Daniel doesn't come back to me, I mean us! I quickly corrected myself. We are one, I keep forgetting that.
+It's ok Sara, I understand, but you really should try talking with me more, we are one you are correct, but you need to be able to come to me. I can help you through things that you don't understand. I'm here to guide you, but only if you let me+
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to like turn you off? That was never my intention, I just get carried away. I sighed miserably, this is my chance to try and keep my mouth shut instead of going on and on. I know I have a tendency to do that a lot of the time.
