You know you're never really taught how to not let anger consume, but everyone says it like it's something you'll know how to do automatically,
maybe it comes with age but i don't know, when i'm angry, i'm angry, i think it is one of my most constant emotions, i anger easily too, why? because people make me angry, and things make me angry, i don't want to be consumed by this emotion, this agitation, this vex, but i always felt that it kept me from getting hurt, "don't let them know your weaknesses", display perfection? i don't get it really, on one side i've convinced myself that i've fooled the world into thinking that i couldn't care less about my weaknesses, on the other hand i let them consume me, yet on a metaphorical third hand i claim perfection? yet let anger take me whole, i don't think i can decipher what it is i feel and who i want to be, maybe i need to stop saying that and just work at it, i'm tired of constantly feeling like i'm broken, even if it's true must i feel it all the time? imagine feeling so much anger for people, that compares so little to the anger you feel for yourself.
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Until she was happy
ŞiirHappiness is a privilege and i talk deep so this whole book is a possible trigger warning. Don't look at this as a way to find peace in your darkness, this doesn't offer that, look unto this as a way to hurt with someone else, and find peace in the...
