I really can't say why this is getting to me so bad, why it's causing this spiral, to be honest i don't know that it's the one thing i think it might be a combination of everything, regardless of the cause, how do i fix it? how do i pull myself out of the rut, maybe step by step.
I think i'm making the right decision by choosing not to go, i really don't do big crowds so i think that's the best thing for me, the only issue is just that i'll have the weekend, the whole weekend with myself and my thoughts and that honestly scares me, i don't know what to do.
I think i just feel very out of place there, like everyone is telling me i don't belong or like everyone is against me, it just doesn't feel like i have anyone in my corner really.
But maybe the solution is to be in my own corner and to root for myself, i need to start being able to make adult decisions, and put myself in difficult situations because let's face it, all my goals require that, i'm never going to get to where i need to be if i'm not allowing myself do things that make me uncomfortable.
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Until she was happy
PoetryHappiness is a privilege and i talk deep so this whole book is a possible trigger warning. Don't look at this as a way to find peace in your darkness, this doesn't offer that, look unto this as a way to hurt with someone else, and find peace in the...
