The Last Chance Book 2

Chapter 7

" That alone proves that you are nothing like him or anyone in that group of people ". Before he could say anything he hears the door open. When he turns to look at who it is. He sees all of his friends. Zee gets up and walks over to them. He then watches as Nat slowly walks over to him. Stopping a few feet away from him. They hold eye contact for a while. He sees the worry in Nat's eyes. Instead of getting angry he just feels sad and disappointed in himself. He looks down and starts to cry again. Nat walks over to him and sits down on the bed next to him. Nat then quickly pulls him into a hug. " I'm sorry. I don't know what's happening with me. I don't want to be mean to you guys. I don't want to worry everyone but every fucking thing I do makes you all worried " He says. Nat pulls away from the hug and looks at him in the eyes. " Stop apologizing. Please NuNew. I just want to help you get better. I don't want to see my best friend hurting this much. I'm going to help you. We are all going to help you. I know we don't understand fully what you are going through. But what we do understand is that you are acting this way because of ptsd. So please. Stop apologizing NuNew ". He looks down at Nat's hands and gently grabs them. " You're not scared of me right. It was just my head right. It wasn't really fear right ". Is all he can ask. Before doing anything or thinking of anything else he needs to make sure it was just in his head.
Nat squeezes both of his hands gently. He quickly looks back up when he hears Nat start to cry. " I'm so sorry. I wasn't afraid of you. I could never be afraid of you. I'm sorry I made you even think that I could possibly be scared of you " Nat says while looking at him. He quickly shakes his head no. " If I can't say sorry then you can't. Everyone tells me that it's just my ptsd making me act like this. It's the same way with how I thought you were afraid of me. It's the same way I though Hia was angry at me. It's the same way that I was angry at my self ". He looks at everyone. " I was never angry at any of you ". He turns to look back at Nat. " Don't blame yourself when it's me who imagined that you became afraid of me ". He smiles a little bit to try and reassure Nat. Who in return nods. He looks back down at his and Nat's hands. He then squeezes Nat's hands gently. Nat looks at him. " You're still thinking I'm afraid of you " Nat asked in a nervous voice. He shakes his head no. " I'm thinking about how it felt when I thought you were scared of me " he says looking up at Nat. Nervously he says " I felt like everything was taken away from me. I wanted to lock myself away from everyone. I started to become afraid of myself. I started to hate myself. I hated how I acted so much ". Nat pulls him into another hug. " When Hia found me I just kept asking him what to do. I didn't know what to do because I thought I made the first person who was kind to me, become afraid of me. That my first friend in years became afraid of me. I wanted to be anywhere but here. I ". Nat interrupts him. " Stop explaining. Please " Nat said with a shaking voice.  He immediately stops talking. " You never made me afraid so try to stop thinking about that. I could never be afraid of you ". Nat stops hugging him. Nat makes him look at him. " How could I be afraid of you when I know you would never hurt anyone. You might say harsh things but you never mean them. Have you forgotten that I can read you like a book. Even if you're not able to control your emotions I can tell ". He smiles a little and shakes his head. " I couldn't forget. Earlier I was upset that you could see how I was feeling. But I also think that it's a good thing. Because you can know what I'm thinking without me saying it. Every time I couldn't say what I wanted to or I was panicking I always looked for you. No matter how much I am panicking I always know to look for you " he says while looking at Nat. They both smile. He turns to look at Max when he hears him say " He's your guardian angel. You became friends with Nat when you needed him the most. I think you are both each other's guardian angels. NuNew, since you've been here. Nat has become a lot happier. It's not just you who started to become more happy ". He sees everyone agree. He smiles. " To be honest. Even though Nat is able to understand me the most, I feel like you all are my guardian angels. You have all helped me in some way ". He begins to list off how they've helped. " Nat helps me by knowing what I need by simply looking into my eyes. P'Net always lightens the mood after something stressful happens and helps me laugh. P'James helped me so much at the beach. P'Tommy has helped me calm down and focus, like he did at the beach. P'Jimmy is someone who makes me feel comfortable in situations, he's always giving me great advice. P'Max has helped me show my scars and get used to them. And Hia, he has shown me so much love and has become someone I feel safe with. You all are my guardian angels ". He sees everyone smiling. " This is the first time. We have all smiled together since the beach ". He stands up, pulling Nat up with him. He opens his arms. " I want a group hug. I think we all need a hug from each other after these past few days ". They all laugh while doing a group hug. It's the first time he's felt completely calm since the beach. Unfortunately it ends when he hears his fathers voice coming down the hallway. Followed by a couple of other voices. He feels upset as he remembers what his father says, but before he gets to angry he feels Nat grab ahold of his hand. " It'll be ok. Tell your father how his words hurt him. I will stop him talking if I need to ". He looks over to Nat and nods. As long as he has his friends here, he can have a conversation with his father about what he said.

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For people who have ptsd or trauma, at least in my case need constant reassurance that their ptsd plays a major role in how they process and handle things.
Everyone handles trauma and ptsd differently. Please remember that. No one's trauma/ptsd is less then the other persons. Never compare peoples trauma or ptsd.