The Last Chance Book 2

Chapter 38

     By the time they get back to his house, there are already a couple of reporters waiting there for them. So when he gets out of the car he forces himself to stand. Not wanting to cause any more issues spreading by having Zee carry him.
     " NuNew! Can you tell us what happened " a reporter asked. He takes a deep breath as Zee tries to bring him inside of the house. " Please tell us NuNew " he hears another reporter ask. And for some reason he feels the need to. So he turns around to face them.
     " I'll tell you so I can clear everything up " he says before Zee grabs ahold of his waist. Knowing this will be difficult for him to handle. " Yesterday afternoon I had a really bad ptsd episode. I have a lot of guilt for what happened and some times it gets to much and I get thrown into a ptsd episode. Anytime someone around me that I care about or helps me gets hurt. I blame myself even if it's not my fault because Nate has it engraved into my head that it is " he said. " Is that why you went to the hospital today " one of the reporters ask.
     He leans against Zee's chest for comfort as he starts talking about what happened. " Forgive me if I start to become anxious. I am still nervous about everything happening right now " he says with a small smile. " take your time. We are here to find out the truth so we can let people know that it's a normal thing that happens " said one reporter. So he smiles before saying " Thank you for helping then " he said.
     " While I was in the hospital after the first incident I had to go through a lot of intense therapy to help me with my ptsd. It was harsh but I needed it to push myself in order to be ok around other people. That therapist told my parents to contact him if they ever felt like I needed his help. Because of the severe ptsd episode I had. My parents as well as everyone else was scared so they contacted him. That's why I was at the hospital " he said before he reaches over to grab Nat's hand.
     " I get extremely anxious about being at the hospital. While my friends and Hia did help me calm down while being there. I was still anxious and nervous. My therapist had me walk alone around the hospital with another doctor. The whole incident that happened today was recorded. They asked me questions as we walked around the hospital. At some point we reached the hallway of where I stayed at during the time I was in the hospital " he says before taking a deep breath to calm his nerves.
     He's thankful that the few reporters at his house are kind and patient with him. Because he wants to tell the story. He's only able to do it because the reporters are kind and there's only a few.
     " A thing about my ptsd is that when I see places or certain spots that I have really bad memories with. It can trigger me into an anxiety attack. I had warned the therapist ahead of time that I was on the verge of an anxiety attack and could not handle going into another one after what happened the last time. I knew that it would be a bad one if I did. And it was. I had closed my eyes to take a deep breath in order to try and calm myself down. The therapist grabbed my shoulder and taken by surprise I fell hurting my wrist. The therapist said to follow him so I can get it looked at ".
     His hands start to shake a little bit. Nat noticing that, squeezes his hand gently while Max who was behind him, gently grabs his shoulders. Zee still has his arm wrapped around his waist. All three of them bringing him a lot of comfort. " Bare with me while I start telling you the bad details. And I also want to say that this deals with details about a severe anxiety attack so it can be hard to hear " he says. And once the reporters nod their heads he continues.
     " I hesitantly followed the therapist down the hallway. When we were next to the room I stayed in he forced me to go into the room. The therapist new how traumatic some of my memories are from being in there. The therapist knew I was on the verge of an anxiety attack. The therapist knew that once I go into a ptsd episode that I would be a very bad one. And yet he still locked me in there " he says holding back tears.
     " They locked the door and even with me yelling to let me out the therapist wouldn't let me. I haven't talked about this at all yet to anyone " he says before looking at Zee, Max and Nat. He then turns to look back at the reporters.
     " My ptsd was so bad that I started hallucinating. I don't want to go into full detail right now. I might in the future but in order to make sure I don't have another anxiety attack I won't tell the full details. I will just tell you that there's a voice telling me that I was going to die. That they were going to kill me. Because in my mind the last time I was in that room Nate was not in jail and I was terrified he'd come to kill me when he found out that I was still alive ". He can see the reporters all starting to pity him.
     " On the news the part of the video you saw was me hallucinating that I saw blood on the hospital bed. When I saw that I was terrified and believed that the voice was telling the truth. When the therapist opened the door to come to me the voice said to get up and run and that's what I did. That's what you guys saw in the video. I truly terrified and thought I was going to die. I was unable to really recognize that I was in a ptsd episode. I was unable to find Hia, P'Max and Nat who are some of the only people that can help me when I'm in that state of mind. I remember getting held still by a security guard and " he pauses before looking towards Nat. Knowing he has issues with hearing him beg in the past.
" Nat. This part might be hard for you to hear or think about " he says quietly. Nat nods his head before saying " I'll be ok ". He nods his head before turning back to the reporters. " I thought that it was my last moment alive and I started begging for them to not kill me. I was so out of it they had to get me to sleep so I could calm down and get over the ptsd episode " he said.
" If you don't mind me asking, what happened when you woke up " one of the reporters asked.
" I have only been awake for maybe around an hour. I've been at the hospital since early morning. I woke up to hearing my dad yelling at the therapist. I also remember feeling someone on the hospital bed comforting me in a way that they know calms me down " he says the last part with a smile as he looks over to Zee before quickly looking back to the reporters.
" I want to let people know that my parents are taking legal action. No one should ever force someone into a traumatic situation that they know the person would have some sort of reaction like I did. It's incredibly dangerous. I could have seriously injured myself in the state of mind I was in. Which was what my dad was shouting about to the therapist. I was scared and wanting to leave and so my dad and Zee took me out of the hospital room to where my mom, P'Max and Nat were talking with the head person for the hospital. We then saw the news broadcast and rushed home " he finishes.
The reporters are looking at him with pity. So he says " I can see that you pity me and I wish that you wouldn't. Please don't pity me or all the others who have PTSD because we all are fighting a constant battle with out trauma. Instead please think about how strong we are ".
" I'm sorry you went through that. Thank you for sharing with us what happened. We will help spread the truth on what happened today at the hospital. Is there anything else you want to add before you leave " one of the reporters ask..
" Be kind to others. If you see someone like me who is anxious and nervous " he says before showing them his shaking hands. " Ask them if they are ok. If not try to help them or comfort them the best that you can. Having someone there who can help you makes a huge difference. So please help each other when they need it ".
Before anyone could say anything else his parents arrive home. Both his mother and father look stressed as well as concerned for him as they walk over to him. " Are you ok son " his mother asked him quickly as she gently pats his head once all his friends move away from him.
" I'm ok. I was telling these kind reporters what happened. I don't want people to spread the wrong thing making the situation worse " he says. His parents nod before turning to the reporters. " Thank you for being kind to my son while he explained everything. Now if you excuse us I'm going to bring him inside so he can relax after his stressful day " His father says before he brings
him and the others inside of the house.
            Once inside of the house he lays down on the couch. When Zee walks over to him he sits up a bit so that Zee can sit down before he lays back down, his head now on Zee's lap. " How long was I out for Hia " he asked quietly. " For around 5 hours " Zee said to him.
            He moves so that he's now laying down on his back, looking up towards Zee. " Can you tell us all what you were hallucinating about baby. Just so we know " Zee asked him.
            He looks around to see everyone around him before he takes a deep breath. " Do you guys remember that nightmare I had through out the night and yesterday " he asked quietly. " The one where you saw a bloody version of yourself " Nat asked concerned.
            Before he could reply, Max's phone goes off. " It's Tommy. He's calling me " Max says before answering the phone. " Hey, what is it Tommy " Max says. " Sorry we didn't tell you. We were to focused on him and figuring out what to do. I'll put you guys on speaker phone " Max says before placing his phone down on the table. So he turns to lay facing the phone on the table before Zee starts to gently play with his hair.
" Ok, you guys are on speaker phone "
" Hey NuNew? How are you feeling. We saw the interview "
" Better now that I'm home. Are you back at school "
" We just got back. See are all sitting in the parking lot together. By the way they can all hear you "
" That's good. I was just about to say what happened and it'll be easier to explain it once. I'm sure the full video is out there though "
" Unfortunately it is. We have all seen it already NuNew. Have you guys seen it " he hears Net ask them.
" We all have except for NuNew. He has only saw a small part that was on the news "
" Oh " he says quietly before grabbing on to Zee's arm. Knowing it was probably hard for him to watch. Especially when he called for him.
" Can you tell us the full story of what happened while you were in that room NuNew "
" Yes " he says before taking a deep breath.
" I have never had this bad of an episode before. I've never hallucinated before. It was terrifying. I didn't want to walk down that hallway. I knew I was going to have a severe anxiety attack if some sort of I did. He used me getting hurt to essentially lure me down the hallway. When we got to that room he forced me in. Before I could get out of the room he left and locked me inside of it alone. I was panicking so much. I was terrified. No matter how hard I tried to get the door open I couldn't. Dr.Khai said he can't let me out. When he said that I saw. No I heard myself talking. Saying that they told me so. That they tried to warn me. When I turned to look towards the voice " he pauses as he feels himself start to cry. So he sits up before starting to explain again.
" It was the same bloodied version of myself from my nightmares standing right next to me. They just kept saying that we are going to die. That they were going to kill me. I tried so hard to get myself to realize that it was fake and not real. I wanted to leave the room. I didn't feel safe. I wanted to find Hia " he says before Zee pulls him into a tight hug.
" I said it wasn't real to myself and the other version of myself yelled at me saying it is. They asked me why would they have locked me in the room that o stayed in. I couldn't find a reason. And then the voice told me to look at the bed and when I did it was covered in blood. As if I had previously sat there when I was all bloody. I just screamed because I was so terrified. I didn't know what to do so when the voice told me to run as Dr.Khai and Dr.Bun came in and I did. When the voice told me to not stop I ran faster. I didn't want to die " he says.

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