Renegade

Chapter 29

It's Saturday and today is the first session of my contract with Hector.

So I had to decline Alex when he asked me last night for a date. Dinahilan ko na marami akong backlogged kahit ang totoo’y dahil iyon sa session ko kay Hector.

Tiningala ko ang singnage ng building ng Blast sa harapan ko. Just like the last time I was here, the board had no lights because the place was not yet open. It's only 3PM.

My heart raced as anticipation, heat and desire dawned in my body.

I bit my bottom lip when I realized something just now. I am cheating too.

Right?

Unti-unting gumuhit ang ngisi sa labi ko. Sa halip na konsensya, natutuwa ako. Binabawi ko lang ang ginagawa sa akin ni Alex at Garnet. They're fucking each other too.

Pero hindi lang ako magse-settle sa 'quits' lang. I don’t like the idea of making Alex and Garnet taste their own medicine.

Actually, sa tindi ng galit ko ngayon, I want them to get overdosed with their medicine. At siyempre, ano bang sunod ng overdose?

That's what I want.

I want them to suffer in pain... Until they will wish to just die. That's the most appropriate punishment to cheaters.

“Ma’am!”

Mula sa malalim kong iniisip, nabaling ang tingin ko sa nagsalita at umagaw ng atensyon ko. It was the club’s bouncer.

Sa pagkakataong ‘to, he didn't look at me like I was a lost child anymore. He actually smiled respectfully to me and he didn’t even ask for my pass. Basta pinapasok niya na ako kasi ibinilin daw ni Hector ang pagdating ko. Unlike last time, he didn't interrogate me anymore. Siya pa ang nagsabi sa akin na dumiretso na ako sa second floor, sa room 214.

I was on my way to the staircase when I saw a familiar man. It's Warren. He was cleaning one of the tables and when he saw me, he was stunned. Akmang lalapitan niya ako nang mabilis akong tumakbo paakyat ng hagdan.

There’s no way I would talk to him. Feeling close yung lalaking iyon. Kung ano-ano na namang itatanong niya.

Naiiling na tinungo ko ang inireserba raw na kwarto ni Hector para sa araw na ‘to. I gulped when I noticed an ongoing shoot on the other wing of the floor. Ayoko nang makakita ulit ng nag-aanuhan habang bini-video sila kaya nagmamadali akong pumasok sa room 214 nang mahanap ko iyon.

Nag-init kaagad ang mga pisngi ko nang ma-realize na ito ‘yung parehong room kung saan kinuha ni Hector ang virginity ko.

I roamed my gaze all over the room and my insides instantly clenched as memories of that day came back. Oh gosh.

I shook my head. Mahinang sinampal ko pa ang dalawang pisngi ko para ikalma ang nag-iinit kong katawan. Ito iyong napansin ko sa sarili ko simula nang manood ako ng porn. I became too much aware of myself and of what I was feeling. Kaya ang bilis ding mag-react ng katawan ko sa mga bagay-bagay. O baka malibog talaga ako at ngayon ko lang nalaman?

“Baliw ka na talaga, Clarisse,” I told myself, realizing that Hector was not—

I was stunned in my position when I heard some noises in the bathroom. Doon ko lang napansin ang tunog ng lagaslas ng tubig.

I gulped. Wait. Baka hindi ito iyong room. Shit. Baka namali ako ng tingin. Por dios por santo, baka may nagchuchukchakan pa sa banyo.

I slightly hit my head before I decided to leave the room. I tiptoed towards the door but when I was about to hold the knob, I heard a familiar voice from the bathroom... Calling me?