Renegade

Chapter 36

It took me almost five hours in the laboratory because of the gel electrophoresis. I really hated this part for DNA analysis. Napakatagal gumawa ng gel. Also I isolated the complementary DNA (cDNA) of cassava for gene analysis for post-harvest. In short, I had a very busy day after Alex and I separated earlier this afternoon.

Wala akong ibang gustong gawin ngayon kung hindi ang makabalik ng bahay at makapagpahinga. Ang kaso, may ilang libro akong hiniram sa library na kailangan ko nang ibalik ngayong araw kung hindi magkaka-penalty ako. So, I ended up running as fast as I could to the library with two books in my hands.

Halos pasara na ang library nang dumating ako at kaunti na rin ang mga estudyante. I rushed to the counter to return the books and then rushed to the molecular biology shit section to borrow a few more books.

Pero sa kabila ng pagmamadali at pagkaaligaga ko, hindi nakaligtas sa mga mata ko ang isang eksena. Hindi nakaligtas sa mga tenga ko ang mahihinang halinghing at ipit na ungol.

I was rooted on my place as disgust and anger ran through every fiber of my body. Ilang beses akong napakurap habang sinisigurado na hindi ako dinadaya ng mga mata at tenga ko.

My fists clenched.

Garnet and Alex, in the middle of two book shelves, are kissing each other. Her hands were possessively wrapped around his neck as she kissed him.

Nagsimulang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko dahil sa matinding galit at pandidiri. Nandidiri ako sa kanilang dalawa at sa sarili ko.

Memories of how Alex and I made out on the same aisle disgusted me so much. How can he be so cruel like this? Kaya pala hindi niya ako nasundo sa lab gaya ng sinabi niya.

At ito na naman ako, nagpakatanga.

I heaved a deep sigh to contain and calm my emotions. My legs felt shaky and weak but I thanked the Heavens above when I managed to walk away.

I exited the library with intense wrath slowly invading my system. Mas tumindi ang kagustuhan kong gumanti.

Gaganti ako.

My clouded mind thought of only one person right now- Hector.

There's no way Alex would be the only one cheating here.

***

Hindi katulad ng mga session namin tuwing weekend ni Hector na kada tanghali ako pumupunta sa Blast, ginabi na ako ngayon. I found myself entering the crowded and loud club, hoping to see Hector...

And have sex with him.

Kailangan kong alisin ang isip ko sa mga nakita ko kanina. This anger inside me was no way doing any good to my mental health.

My insecurities are kicking in again and I don't like the feeling of being the loser.

Dire-diretso ang naging pagpasok ko sa Blast. I got my pass with me so I didn't have a hard time getting on the second floor of the club, towards the hallway of rooms where Hector and I usually conduct our sessions.

I texted him that I would be here tonight but he hadn't responded yet.

Dahil sobrang daming tao at halos lahat yata nang nandito sa floor na 'to ay magse-sex na anumang oras, napagdesisyunan kong dumiretso sa room kung saan kami laging nagkikita ni Hector. I guess I had to wait for his reply.

I turned the knob of the room to check if it's open but sadly it's not. "Shit," I muttered, realizing I had to wait here, outside, while people are kissing and making out in every corner and in every room in this floor.