Something Gained

Chapter Nine

I shut the door behind me and fell on the bed and screamed into my pillow. I was mentally exhausted. I kept turning things over in my head. How could I be so stupid, worst of all I, I have jeopardised the most amazing job. If I lose this job, or have to walk away I don't know what I'll do. I love it so much and I need this job to keep me sane. I huffed at myself and got myself up and undressed and into the shower. Flights make me feel so icky. I let the hot water rain down on me clearing away all the exhaustion, I knew one thing I couldn't do. And that was keep this festering and playing around. He looked like he wanted to speak earlier and if he did I needed to hear what he wanted to say, it won't be fair on him. He has such a high energy job. I switched off the water and got a towel and wrapped it round myself, I brushed my teeth and patted my hair with a towel, letting it return to it's naturally curly state. I walked out the bathroom and my heart dropped to my stomach.

"What are you doing in here?" I asked feeling very naked with just a towel on while Daniel sat casually on the chair in the corner of the room
"Sorry I didn't realise you were having a shower, I just wanted to talk" he replied "erm I'll just go"
"Wait.. well yeah I'll need you to go so I can get dressed but come back in 5?"
"Or I could just wait here, it's nothing I haven't already seen" he laughed with a wink. Seriously, even in the most awkward pressing time he still wants to make jokes
"Out. You can wait outside" I said sternly and he chuckled before leaving the room. I got myself dry and threw on a pair of jeans and my white lakers jumper. I chucked my hair up into a ponytail and left it to dry. I walked towards the door and opened it to find him leaning against the wall outside. I didn't say anything and he walked in and returned to his seat in the corner of the room.

"Okay, let's talk" I said sitting on the bed facing him.
"Well erm, I don't know what you're thoughts or feelings are but I don't regret anything and I'm not concerned or worried except for you. I know I shouldn't of done it and it's obviously made you feel crap and I don't want that, so I wanted to say I'm sorry about it, I just caught up in everything and since first laying eyes on I haven't been able to not think about you and last night was just.. yeah" he said. The whole time he spoke he was looking down at his shoes until he finished where he looked up at me and stared into my soul as he normally does with this brown eyes. He looked down again as I sighed.
"I don't regret it either, not like that anyway" I said. His head shot up
"Not like that?" He quizzed
"No. What actually happened I don't regret. I just keep thinking about my job and now what this means and how am I'm going to continue working with you and if you will still be okay with me being there and I just don't know" I shrugged, playing with the corner of the duvet to ease the anxiety. He came over and sat next to me and put his hands on mine to stop me fidgeting
"Nothing is going to happen to your job. I don't care what happens but you'll be part of this team and you'll be there for Lando and I everyday as you have been this whole week, how you've been there for Lando since the beginning of last season. You'll continue working with me because you're good at what you do, you keep us to our schedules and arrange all of things we need to do. But I'm glad you don't regret it. Because I think I do like you and it would be shame not to show you all these amazing places we go to like I promised"
"I just don't think it was a good idea. I've literally just started working with you and I'm not sure what I want to do" I shrugged, I stood up and his hands slid off me
"What you want to do with what?" He asked standing up and walking up to me
"I don't want to mess with you, I don't want to mess with your head or your time. You have such an important hectic job, and I've worked with you for not even a week"
"It's been a week, yes. But these things happen. But I know that if you weren't there, things wouldn't be as great as they have been, and I know Lando would kill me if we lost you, I know that for a fact" he put his hand under my chin and lifted my face up to look at him. He came closer towards me
"Daniel" I warned
"So I can't even touch you now?" He whispered into my ear
"Not when you're making it into more. We need to slow down and think logically about this"
"Or we can go with the flow"
"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked looking into his beautiful eyes.
"Close your eyes" he said, I looked at him and made a face and I closed my eyes. Next thing his lips are back on mine. God damn it Ricciardo. And of course I was kissing him back, who in their right mind wouldn't kiss him back. I pulled away.
"I think it would be best if -" he cut me off by huffing and backing away.
"It would be best if we forgot this happened" he said "Can I finish?" He slumped on the bed. "I was going to say I think it's best if we behave and not have any repeats of last nights right now. I need to keep doing my job and you need to keep doing yours. I do like you, you're funny, smart, talented. But we work together, quite closely in fact" He looked up at me and smiled
"No repeats right now? Well as long as it's potentially on the cards I can live with that" he slapped his thigh and stood up right in front of me. "What are you doing this week?"
"Going back to LA on Wednesday then back here next Next Sunday before we fly to Italy, why?"
"You're going to LA?" He questioned
"Yeah it's where my apartment is" I said sitting down in the chair.
"Well that's exactly where I'm going.. interesting" he chuckled as my phone vibrated. I picked it up and had a text from Lando. I'm lonely, come see me. I laughed and looked up.
"Lando is lonely, wanna go wind him up?" I asked Daniel
"Ha, always!" He walked towards the door, "you coming?" He gestured to the open door way. I nodded and followed him out and down the corridor to Lando's room.