The playful Greek dad

Chapter eighteen

The dinner went well,Geoffrey had dinner with us. George became the center of attention,I'm thankful dahil hindi nila ako napapansin. I'm trying to act normal but sitting near Geoffrey doesn't give me a piece of mind.

George sat in between his father and me I find it awkward,although mama,kuya and Diane act like there's nothing wrong around. I still can't concentrate to stay still and be fine like them. We look like a happy family now! A father who look after his son's need,a son who enjoys his father's attention and everyone else and a mother who sat next to her small family. What a wonderful scene? If only it's for real.

Hindi ko masakyan ang mga ikinikilos ni Geoffrey ngayong mga nakalipas na araw. Parang kelan lang galit siya sa akin dahil sa anak ko na iniisip niyang anak ko sa ibang lalaki. Then the past few days he's being nice again at ngayon andito pa siya kasama ng pamilya ko.

"Hey! Alone again eh!"

Nilingon ko ang nagsalita at nginitian siya,she sat next to me,andito ako sa likod ng bahay kung saan sila nagkatuwaan kaninang hapon. Iniwan ko sila after dinner and I guess they notice how awkward I felt at the dinner table,they didn't asked and I'm thankful they let me be.

"Sorry! I just can't stay and act as if everything are okay around him when I'm not"

I heard she giggles and I look at her.

"What's funny Diane? I didn't see anything funny in this situation"

I said in frustration.

"No,of course! nothing's funny but I felt giddy seeing both of you together and at the dinner table I love looking at the three of you,looking like a complete happy family"

I felt a fang of guilt for him and for my son. I deprived them the attention the two of them should be having.

I've decided to tell Geoffrey about George once again and this time I will make sure he will know about him and never he will get anymore doubt. I'll just have to get a good timing to tell him.

"I thought so too!" I let out a frustrated sigh and tried a fake laugh "I thought I'm doing the right thing for my son,but I was wrong,I should have known right? Materials things doesn't make any difference compare to the time and love we should be giving,mama loves us so much,I know dad too but his busy most of the time,and now my son! He have all the right to be in his father's  care too not just mine but I'm being a hindranced to make it happen"

Nakatingin lang ako sa kawalan,trying to analize things. I felt her arms around.

"I know! But you're just doing what you think is right for him,you made mistakes but you are learningfrom it in the process,Shelie,don't be harsh on your self,everything will be fine okay?" Matipid akong ngumiti sa kanya "that's right! Smile,be happy for George,don't do self pitty again love,you are better than that,and please I know you are still upset with my husband but try to understand him too,he's a man too who happened to be envied"

I looked at her.

"What do you mean?"

Takang tanong ko sa kanya. Naupo siyang muli sa tabi ko at tumingin sa kawalan.

"As you know we want to have our own kids but with no avail,your brother saw how Geoffrey care for your son,he might not know that George is his but he was still there with your son spending time playing,laughing and taking care of him like he is his own son,not to mention that he really is literally,you see love,they have a connection and that connection makes them comfortable to be together and that's how your brother saw them,he don't want that amazing connection between a father and a son to be ruin,because he want it for himself too,the love,the care and the affection"

Naghari ang katahimikan sa paligid,alam ko na masama ang loob ni Diane sa isipin na hindi sila magkakaanak ni kuya. Kaya naman hinayaan ko nalang muna siya. Iniisip ko ang kanyang mga sinabi at unti unti ay naintindihan ko kung bakit ganon nalang ang reaksyon ni kuya. Hindi ko napansin na naaapektohan ko na sila sa pampamilyang aspeto. Ilang minute pa ang lumipas nakapag isip na ako ng dapat gawin na noon ko pa dapat ginawa.

"Ladies!"

It's him!

Sabay kaming napalingon ni Diane sa kinaroroonan nito. Diane smiled at him as she stand up.

"I'll leave you two to talk,I'll see you around sis!"

Hindi na nito hinintay pa ang aking sagot,dumiretso na ito sa loob ng bahay at naiwan na ako dito. Tumikhim si Geoffrey bago naupo sa binakanteng upuan ni Diane kanina lang.

He is so close,so close that I can smell his scent,even after a whole day of playing with George under the sun,he still manage to smell this good. Para tuloy gusto kong ihilig ang aking ulo sa kanyang dibdib at amoyin ang kanyang bango. Oh my gosh! Why am I thinking like this to him? He still have the same effect on me. I lightly shook my head trying to clear my mind from an unexpected thoughts? Really?

"You have a very adorable and lovable son,I admire how you raised him well,you did a great job as a mother and .....again...Lei, I'm sorry to what I have said last few days ago"

I felt the sincerity from him,I don't have to look at him to know if he is sincere or not,what I felt is enough to know.

"thanks! I'm good now"

"Lei,the whole day I spend with George was amazing I felt a fulfilment and I never expected that" I can sense his confusion "I would like to know him more if you do not mind? Lei!"

Marahas akong napalingon sa kanyang kinauupuan,sinusuri ang kanyang kabuuan,inaanalisa kung tama ba ang aking mga narinig mula sa mga labi nito.

"I know you won't just believe me,after what I said to you before you will hardly believe it,and I am too! Did you know the first time hi called me dada I felt overwhelmed and happy and contented,Lei,I want us together again with your son,I do not mind at all now"

What more if he learned that he is his son? I can see that he will be a good father to him. I just have to make it happen,it's all on me now,his rights for our son and our son's chance to be with his father.