Born to be Yours (SS #1)

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Here I am staring at the beautiful and mesmering skies. We're on the airplane going to the philippines. Our dad is our superior and no one can resist him.

"You want tea? Or water? You didn't drink anything when we leave in your condo" Nagaalalang sabi ni Ate Senna.

Umiling ako. I don't want to go home yet but dad's want us to go home. Ayoko pang bumalik at gusto ko nalang nasa malayo pero di ako nilulubayan ni Ate Senna.

"You know I don't want to go home. I'm not comfortable on going home" Umusog ako sa bintana.

Naramdaman kong humarap sa akin si Ate para makita niya akong mabuti.

"I know but dad only demand once. We must obey him and do what he wanted us to do. Pwede ka namang bumalik agad kung hindi naman ganoon importante iyon" Ani ni Ate habang umiinom. Kanina pa siya umiinom siguro dahil nasa airplane kami.

Ate Senna is afraid of heights. As much as possible she wants to stay away from heights. I guess during her maturation stage she gain confidence to fight her fears.

"I guess it is indeed crucial. Alam natin si dad at walang gusto iyon kung hindi ay makasama tayo sa event" Inayos ko ang buhok ko.

Ate Senna pat my head with care. She always does this when I am stress or not in the mood.

"They missed you so much and they want us there to celebrate with them. I think Ate Taryn will go home too" Nakatingin si Ate Senna sa phone niya habang nagsasalita.

"Did Ate Taryn miss me too?" Natanong ko nalang habang nakatingin sa bintana ng eroplano.

Hinawakan ni Ate ang kamay ko ngunit hindi parin ako natinag sa pagtingin sa ganda ng ulap sa bintana.

"She misses you a lot baby. Ate Taryn is introvert but she always show to us how much she loved us especially you." Malumanay ang boses ni Ate Senna.

Tumango ako at pumikit. The way she said it, I felt relax and calm. They are my sisters afterall.

Nakatulog ako sa buong flight namin. My heart feel at ease and my mind is over clouding of the emotions.

Kinuha ko ang bagahe ko. A small bag but full of necessity. I'll just buy later in the mall my clothes.

"Ano kaya ang niluto nila sa bahay?" Tanong ko habang sumasakay sa sasakyan.

"Sabi ni Manang. Nagluto daw sila ng apat na dish kaya mukhang mapapakain ako mamaya" Ani ni Ate sabay hilig sa upuan niya.

"I'm on my diet--"

"You know there's no room for diet later on our house. Pagagalitan ka ni mom kapag nalaman niyang hindi ka kumakain ng marami" Asar ni Ate sa akin.

"Kung hindi ka magsusumbong Ate hindi nila malalaman"

Natawa siya. Silang dalawa lang naman ni Ate Taryn ang sumbongera sa aming tatlo.

"I can't stop my mouth darling. There's no filter when we were gathering together"

"Surgery can if you can't" Mataray na sabi ko.

Pinalo ako ni Ate sa kandungan ko. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

"That's too personal and lame reason. Marites can't stop their mouth and they have their ways"

"So, accountant like you also considered herself as a marites huh?" Natawa ako.

Humalukipkip si Ate at pinagkrus ang legs niya. She's so well manner when she sits like this.

"Well, basically no but when we are inside in the bank. There's a lot of issues but not that one you are talking with. I am professional sweet talker but not marites. Para sa expert kababayan natin iyang katagang yan" Ani ni Ate.

She is fond of filipino attitude and she respect them a lot.

Nakarating na kami sa bahay. Bukas pa kasi yung event. I know my parents will make it grand even the event is simple.

"My beautiful daughters are here! Welcome loves" Nakangiting bungad ni Mom sa amin. She hugged us tight and dad also greet us. He only pat our head and kiss both of our temple.

"Welcome home ladies. Pahinga muna kayo sa taas and later gigisingin namin kayo okay? Now go" Saad ni Dad sa amin. He's so sweet dad ever.

Tumango na agad kami ni Ate sabay bigay sa mga kasambahay ang mga gamit namin. Nakita ko agad si Kuya Gab at niyakap agad siya ni Ate Senna. Yes, they are closed like father and daughter tandem.

Kuya Gab gesture me to come with them. Napairap nalang ako pero lumapit nalang din. I hugged him tight. Kuya Gab is our closest professional guard and he protect us. Kahit ayokong may bodyguard. He secretly following me back then.

"Welcome home my ladies master. Kulang nalang si Taryn" Sabi niya. Napailing nalang ako. Mahilig siyang magdrama kaya minsan ayoko sa kanya. But then he's good at everything.

Nilagay niya ang hintuturo niya sa ilong ko. He gently press it like he always does when I was in highschool and senior high year but I never let him guard me. I'm not comfortable but he respect it.

"Did you even miss me my young lady master? Baka nakalimutan muna ako at baka may pumalit na sa pwesto ko bilang body guard niyo?" Nagkakamot siya ng ulo. Natawa ako sa naging reaksyon niya.

Umiling ako sa kanya. Marami siyang ganyan sa isip niya at gusto kong malinawan siya.

"Kuya Gab, don't you dare stay that kind of mindset in your thought. You're always the one and only guard in my heart okay? Grr so cringe" Kinilabutan ako sa sinabi ko kaya natawa silang dalawa ni Ate Senna.

"Lumalabas na ang totoo mong ugali bunso. Huwag mo kasing pigilan kasi sumasaya nasa paligid mo" Nakangiting sabi ni Ate at napatingin kay Kuya Gab. "Gab, please let her rest kasi di iyan masyadong nakapagpahinga"

Tumango si Kuya Gab samantalang ako ay nagwave nalang habang nauna ng naglalakad.

"Masaya ka ba sa ginagawa mo? Lalo nasa ibang bansa ka" Narinig kong saad ni Kuya Gab.

Tumango ako at naggesture ng okay sign. I'm thankful for being away and also my career that succeed the most. It is a bliss for me to received this kind of gift.

"Yes po Kuya Gab. This gift I've received is such a blessing and it made me change a lot. It change me but I'm still the young lady you know" Napangiti nalang ako.

The society changes and the atmosphere become heavy but the character I've build inside me is still the same. The love that I want hurt me but it build me stronger even more.

"I'm glad to know my lady. I hope your heart also forgive and be able to love again. Chances is still there" Makahulugang sabi ni Kuya Gab.

Natahimik ako sa sinabi nila. It has a lot of meaning for me and it is deep. Did he say a sign to me?

Nagpaalam akong sa balcony muna ako ng kwarto ko magtatambay. Alam na agad iyon ni Kuya Gab.

I hugged myself when the wind embrace me. It is cold but my inside feels empty and warm.

I didn't expect to go home this early but I know God has a purpose to me. I can forgive but giving chances can also kill me double. It is the hardest way of forgiving but I will try.

"After all, I'm still a human. We were born to be alone but I'm still seeking for the greatest love and chances is still the key" Bulong ko nalang sa sarili ko. Napait akong napangiti ng pumasok sa isip ko si Zion.

We had a lot of memories. I am willing to take a risk just to be close to him but the world is against it. It was all planned and his revenge succeed. It hurt so much but it is done.

Napatingin ako sa harap ng gate namin at nakita ang anino ng isang tao. Hindi ko makitang mabuti dahil natatakpan ang mukha. Kumalabog ang puso ko. Iisa lang ang nasa isip ko ngayon.

Is that Zion? Is he spying on me secretly?

Napahugot ko ang hininga ko at umiling. I'm just imagining things that could ruin me again. Bumalik na agad ako sa loob at naglinis na sabay tulog agad. I'm tired and this is the chance I have in this night.