redefine | calum hood

thirty

Thirty

Maddie

It was finally Saturday. Everyone had been so busy through the week, moving and working. I focused on school more, and tried to navigate my feelings for Iris. It was different than with my other friends, and I didn't know what to do. Calum had gotten me a new phone and let me have social media. Iris was the first to follow me, and it made me giddy. She looked gorgeous in all of her photos, but I didn't tell her that. I didn't know if it'd make me sound weird.

Today she came over though, and we got to figure out my room. I didn't have anything uet, so Calum gave me his laptop and we sat in my room. His exact words were "go nuts" then he left me and Iris to look through. We were laying on our stomachs in my room, shopping on websites and saving things to a google doc, which we'd been doing for hours. "What color scheme are you wanting?" Iris asked.

"I don't really know," I admitted.

"Well what's your favorite color?" she asked, looking at me.

"Hm," I thought for a moment, "maybe an emerald green?"

"Perfect, it'll go with your eyes," she smiled, making me blush and look down. My heart began to pound again as she typed on the keyboard. Do you want your bed in the corner or in the middle of the room?" she asked and stood up. "Because if we put it here we have to have the furniture going around, but in the corner we can try to get dressers only on one wall,"

"Maybe the corner then, I want more space in the middle," I said and she nodded with a smile.
"Good pick," she smiled.

"Maybe we could get fairy lights," I stood up, "and hang them across with those vines," I walked over to her and pointed wall to wall.

"Oh yeah," she smiled. "How do we feel about mirrors that do absolutely nothing but are cute?" she asked, making me giggle.

"I don't think I've ever seen those," I admitted and she gasped.

"Are you kidding?" she questioned and went over to a wall, pointing at random spaces, "we can put them here if you want, they're tiny but so cute," she explained.

"What if they surround a bigger mirror?" I came over and she smiled.

"Now you're thinking," she said as she looked over. We locked eyes for a moment, both of our faces softening as we looked at each other. Like before, my hands got sweaty, my stomach got butterflies, my heart was beating rapidly. As Ashton diagnosed, I had a crush. And it was on Iris.

Before I could think of what to do next, Iris cupped my cheeks and pulled me in, crashing her lips onto me. My first reaction was to pull away, but then I actually thought for a moment. I was kissing my crush, I was kissing the girl I have been crushing on since I met her. So I didn't pull back. I put my hands over hers and kissed back. We broke the kiss and looked at each other, both shocked and confused.

"I don't know if that was the right thing to do, or if you like girls, but I had to go for it," she said.

"I don't really know, but I know that I enjoyed that," I whispered, making her giggle. Before she could say something, we were interrupted.

"Hey, Mad, Iris' parents are here," Calum yelled, making my eyes widen.

"Coming," I yelled back, then looked at Iris. "Please don't tell anyone, they don't know and I don't even know," I begged Iris.

"Hey, don't worry," Iris reassured me. "It stays between us, I promise," she said and I nodded. We left my room and went down where Iris' parents were. They smiled when we came down, greeting me. Calum talked with them a little until they left, Iris and I saying bye to each other. I was giddy about all of this, but now I was freaked out.

"I think we're going to get burgers for dinner, what would you like?" he asked.

"Uh, I'm not really hungry," I admitted, making him frown.

"Mad, you gotta eat, you skipped lunch," he said.

"I will later, just not right now," I promise. Before he could say anything, I spun around and ran up to my room, slamming the door and locking it behind me. I sunk down to the ground in front of my door, crying into my leggings as I hugged my knees tightly.