Fanfictions

I'm Here - Holden Ford x Any Gender Reader

Holden stepped into the hotel room, he lowered his bags slowly before he noticed the beds, or lack there of. One bed.

"Are you going to okay or should I see if they have another room, if we were funded..."

"No, it's really okay." You promised. You pulled your top off for the night. Holden looked you over, he stepped back for a moment. You pulled a tank top on to try and ease Holden. "Are you alright?"

"I'm fine," he smiled softly. "Are you sure you're okay with the single bed?"

"Yes, I am just fine with it. Agent Ford."

Holden smirked as you headed to the bathroom, you brushed your teeth and looked yourself over in the mirror. You gave yourself a small half cocked smile. "You're fine.." You said to yourself.

Holden appeared in the bathroom behind you. He watched you in the mirror. "Are you okay?"

"I.. yes I am. Really," you took a deep breath. "Just thinking about our cases, Kemper. All of it."

Holden nodded with a blink of understanding. You turned back towards him with a soft smile, your lips curled downwards. He rubbed your shoulder. "It's okay. It's a lot and I know it.. it can be a lot. The things we hear, the things.. the things we witness. They're so close to us, they can touch us, they talk to us like we are friendly. It's all okay. I promise."

You smiled softly leaving him to clean up for bed. You climbed in first, pulling a blanket over yourself. Holden appeared again after a moment. He climbed in beside you. You turned your backs to one another, you shook slightly thinking about the victims. Thinking about the conversations you've just had. Kemper speaking about his mother, sharing a pizza with him. It felt wrong, you were being friendly with a killer, a multiple murderer.

Holden could feel your shaking, he turned himself towards you wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you closer to himself. You bit your lip before you turned yourself towards him. "Holden?"

"Are you okay, really? You're shaking (Y/N)."

"I'm okay.. it's just a lot to take in. You know.. knowing that I was inches away from Kemper.."

"I was right beside you, I always will be. You're my partner."

"Yes.. you are." You smiled, your faces close. "Holden.."

"I promise you, it's okay. I am here. I always will be, we are partners. You helped me follow my gut, you let me follow my gut. It's all you, I couldn't do this without you."

You smiled softly at his words. The clear intent he has in speaking with you, the clear care he has for you. "Thank you," you smiled. He smiled and tilted his head up slightly. He looked you over with a kind smile. "You smell like mint."

"Toothpaste." He grinned.

"Taste good?" You asked with a smile.

He thought for a moment, he leaned forward into you. Your lips meeting with a hesitant softness, you tilted up into the kiss calming his nerves helping him build some intensity to it. You smiled kissing him back, you were smiling into each kiss. Soon Holden was on top of you, he was kissing you carefully but intensely. You smiled as he held your chin close to his own. You kissed him back once more before he finally laid beside you in the bed.

"Taste good to you?" Holden asked with a smirk.

"Yes." You chuckled. "Real nice. Dental hygiene is real important."

Holden chuckled at the comment, his laughter calming your nerves. "We can share more beds if you want.." Holden suggested.

"Would keep the rooms cheaper," you smiled. "Keep our bosses happy."

"Yes which we need to do, because I keep making mistakes." Holden admitted.

"I'm here to help you too," you smiled softly. "I'm here for you."

Holden smiled kissing your cheek, you both laid back finally after thinking for a moment. He was yours and you were his, you were going to work together to build up the BSU. You were going to work together to build up a relationship and help one another through the darkness of the people you interviewed daily. Together you could do it, and together you would be one another's sanities.