The Lost Dreams of a Broken Poet

Unanswered questions

Hello! How are you all doing? I find the fact that I am writing this maybe two months before it gets published really funny. Anyway, I'm a queer person (y'all know that already tho), but I have never got the chance to truly come out to my family (yeah, pretty sad, I know 😅), since my mom always asked me before I was ready. I have a few poems about that. 

So what?:
(yes, this one is already published, but I wanted all my queer poems together)

So what if I'm not normal,
So what if I can't be,
The perfect child that you
Always thought I'd be

So what if I like girls
So what if I am gay
I'd like to share my colors,
But I am still the same

The same child you raised
The same child you loved
The same child who told you:
"Mom, I like girls"

The closet:

You shove those words into my heart
And strain breaks it apart
You swear it wasn't your intention
That I'm just looking for attention
You pushed me out of the closet
Then hid me back in your pocket
You say I am too young
But this is who I am

December 1st '21

Words and hurt:

I don't think you understand
How hurtful your words can be,
I don't think you understand
That I'm just trying to exist.
And you say that you're worried
Worried that I'll regret it,
But maybe you're just afraid
Of admitting you never truly knew me.
And you asked me what's the need
To create so many labels,
That we can just live our lives
Without screaming it to the neighbors,
And I guess you don't realize
That normal gets to scream
While what you call different
Remains hidden behind dark screens.

April 27th '22

A truth becomes a lie because the time was not right:

I was so excited
For this day to arrive
I was so ready
To unveil all the lies
And it was all gone
When you demanded for more
And it all broke
Because I had forgot

June 3rd '22