𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟸𝟼

KANE

THIS DAY WAS DESTINED TO COME. It was something that was going to happen no matter what.

It's been one month since the incident with Isabelle's mother. She is still yet to tell me what exactly happened and what made her so sad. So depressed. But that's not on my mind right now.

I drop my head, holding it in my hands. Tears fall out my eyes, hitting the floor. They don't stop. They fall, fall, fall and fall.

A sob escapes my lips, chest tightening, heart hurting, feeling empty and alone.

"Excuse me?" I hear, "Mr West, you need to leave the room now." I nod, wiping my nose and sniffling quietly.

I stand up, walking towards the bed slowly, heart sliced into two, tears already pooling my eyes, feeling nothing but pain.

He lies there, face pale, eyes close, body froze and chest stilled. Not even a wheeze leaving his mouth or a broken breathe. My father, Luke West, lies on his hospital bed. Finally looking at peace.

"Mr West?"

"One second." I mutter, leaning down and leaving a kiss on his forehead. I flinch at the cold, lifeless skin that touches my lips, leaning back and running a hand down my face, breathe uneven.

"I love you, dad. Always."

I wish I spent more time with him. Why didn't I spend more time with him?

I leave the room, bumping into walls and people, feeling dizzy, a ringing sound in my ear.

I can't breathe. My chest feels as if someone is sitting on it. Like someone is suffocating me with a plastic bag. Fumbling with my keys, I hop onto my motor bike, sight blurry, not thinking straight and my head all over the place.

My dad is dead.

My dad is dead.

My dad is dead.

I'm never going to see him again. Never going to hear his dark jokes. Laugh nor see that stupid look he gets in his eyes when he tells them. His dumb threats and complains about his piss bag that leaving me laughing. It's gone. He left me.

Why am I so shocked. I knew it was going to happen. But why does it feel as if it's happened to fast. As if no one warned me.

I drive, fast, past all the cars, ears intently listening to the motor, eyes blinking rapidly at all the bright lights. It's always me. I have no mum and now no dad. What the fuck am i supposed to do.

I'm still seventeen. My birthday is in a few months. No where close. Am I supposed to live alone?

Thoughts clash in my head, fighting to picked and heard. I clench and I clench my eyes, head and eyes feeling heavy.

Revving my bike, I lean towards the side and see a upcoming lorry. If I fall at the right moment, it'll end for. End my pain and I can join my dad.

It will be quick and nearly painless.

My eyes stare at the lorry. It's close. I'm nearly close to it. It'll take one second and then that's it. I won't feel anymore pain.

Isabelle.

I can't leave her. She needs me. I need her. What am I thinking.

But I need my dad.

Slapping a hand against my face, i take a shaky breath and drive past the lorry, heart slamming against my chest, wind blowing in my face.