WHY ME?? (JJK FF)✔️

chp-55 (edited)

Author's Pov:

Mr. and Mrs. lee

both of them were not uttering anything , the only thing they had in their mind was yn ,
Mr Lee was having this feeling of calling yn to their house and have a good discussion about it but at the same he was confuse whether he should do it or not.
he looked at his wife who was also in a deep thought.
sighing he placed a hand on top of her making her snap her heads towards her husband, she took a deep breath and held his hands back
"am worried about yn Micheal" she said staring at their hands, Mr Lee just rested his head back on the head rest "even me, I just hope she is doing good there" he said closing his eyes and inhaling a deep breath.
Mrs Lee looked at her husband and she sensed he was stressing about it but she knew the matter is about their daughter and she wanted to know what's the actual matter going with both yn and jungkook.
sighing she looked out of the window
"you remember honey, when yn was young she used to write diaries" Mrs Lee said with a frown on her face staring at nothing in particular but the window.
Mr Lee looked at her and sat straight waiting for her to continue he hummed in the sense of acknowledging to what she was saying.
"you remember once we were dusting her house and we found that diary where she used to write everything she feels and after reading that-" she paused and looked at her husband  with a glossy eyes
"you remember she never said anything to anyone even about the bullies thinking she would be burden to us" Mrs Lee said as a tear rolled down her eyes "I don't want any of my daughter facing anything honey" she said sobbing quietly
Mr Lee just wrapped his arms around her shoulders and pulled her closer she rested her head on his chest and wiped the tears away
" Don't cry my love ill do something for sure about this don't worry ok" Mr Lee said calming her down and rubbing her arms.
Mrs Lee looked at him and said "honey once jiyeon entered yn's life everything changed she started sharing everything with her why don't we ask her to talk to yn and let us know about it?" Mr Lee thought for a while and yea he does know yn and jiyeon both share a very Strong bond and he actually knew that jiyeon could help them about it.
nodding at her words Mr Lee looked at her and smiled "yes we'll do so ok? her exam will be over this week I guess once she is back we'll talk to her about it" Mr Lee said pecking her forehead, Mrs Lee smiled back and rested her head on his chest again "everything will be fine right" she said but Mr Lee wasn't sure about this cos he was having this unknown feeling which he couldn't understand so he just hummed and looked out of window to find a way for this

Yn and jungkook

yn wasn't in the mood to talk about anything not because she was sad but because she was hurt.
hurt because she was expecting jungkook to be happy about the thought of having a family but she didn't knew he would be opposed of the idea cos not wanting a thing and the way jungkook reacted it was cleared for her that jungkook' just hate the idea to the core and that's what hurted her the most
jungkook noticed yn hasn't spoke a word there was a complete silence in the car and, jungkook looked at her who was already in a deep thought.
sighing he just decided to talk it out but didn't knew how to start the conversation.
"yn-ah" he called softly
but she didn't reply he again called her making her snap back from her thoughts "hmm" all she said titling a bit forward waiting for him to say something.
he looked at her and feeling guiltily about the things he doing on her back "yn-ah I know what you thinking about" he said looking forward and driving slowly.
yn just sighed and looked to the other side as well but she was surely not in the mood to talk about it.
"dont worry jungkookie am just tired alot today am good" she said smiling at him and rested her elbows on the side of the car window
and her chin on her wrist closing her eyes cos of the soothing feel as air was hitting her face.
"no it's not fine yn I don't want to ruin our bond I don't want to just mess whatever is there between us we are trying to open up with each other and I don't want that to be stopped by anything and most importantly I don't want to hurt you"
jungkook said being sincere in his words and yn just gave a genuine smile to him and said "don't think about it so much jungkookie nothing is gonna change between us take as much time as you want" she said ending up the discussion there and getting back to her position again

only if you knew jungkookie what's bothering me.
I know that you've been forced for this marriage but am trying my every best to make you love me, am sure I won't be giving up on that but at the same time there's a constant fear what if there's nothing you feel about me? what if you never love me back? I'm not gonna lose hope tho
I'll wait as much time you'll take but what if this wait doesn't worth it

yn was being restless about this thought, sighing she massaged her head and looked forward to the road biting her lips.

on the other hand jungkook was being restless too
but for different things.

there's nothing wrong having a family with you yn-ah but it feels wrong when you love somebody else and having a family with someone else, the things which I'm supposed to do with you I actually wanna do that to someone else and I know I've tied knots with you already but I just can't go with the thought of having a family and at the same I don't wanna hurt you as well, I don't know what's coming next but am actually not ready for this
I promise that I'll be taking good care of yours and will try my every best to not hurt you but some or the other ways I end up hurting you which I actually feel guilty for.
what if you get to know about me and jiyeon? I don't know how you would react? Damn! no not at all! I won't let that thing to know you at any cost

and there was this messed up thoughts in his head, shrugging every thoughts he drive straight away to his mansion.

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Hello angels, here's the update hope you guys enjoy it and on Sunday I promise to give multiple updates with lengthy chaps cos of a special occasion, I'll let you guys know 🤭