what's out there ( a poetry story )

the robot

years go by,
and i still feel like

i'm stuck

there's no way out

for what seems like forever,
this could be my life now

killed by the instant

goodbye

tears flooded

could be filled by the
ocean

this man,
there's no running away from him

as much as he kept me around his finger
he

he literally controls me
everything

i'm just little project he named

amanda

i am who i am
today
because of

him

he can say he
builded
me

cause in a way,

he did

i was his little project that he couldn't finish

amanda never was fulfilled by what he gave her

she wanted more

more than a touch of his love

but his promise of

forever

the blood on his finger tips
as he smears it all over the fucking walls

i hear the laughing echos
from the hall

who won the battle?

d

d i called him

one of his nicknames,

as to i,
was

amanda

we lived an edward and bella story

but in this version

there's no happy ending,

well,
i can't see one

men like edward don't exist anymore,
but he,

he was a rare kind

he was an edward

who i thought

maybe he and i will be the new edward and bella

he runs up the stairs,
as i was thrown into the water tied

i sink
as he rises

we both lost

because we both were broken
since we were little kids

and we both wanted that love
that we never got to experience with someone

who wasn't even in the same town

but the connection,
was un fucking real

so why is he acting like,
he won?

because as he gets to the top,
he's gonna realize that it's too late

as i sink to the bottom,

will i ever see light again?
or will amanda

will amanda be destroyed
because her electric heart can't handle

the water?

she's not drowning,

she's breaking .