what's out there ( a poetry story )

love isn't suppose to hurt this bad

it's funny to think that at first all i wanted was love,

now all i want is to survive

all love ever did for me was kill me

piece
by
piece

ripping every body part in my body

there's no pleasure to life anymore

i don't see the difference from years ago
till
now

men are men

we cannot change them
or
tell them what to do

but
what we can do is love ourselves

and please ourselves better then how these men fuck

it's not about wanting the best man,
best relationship

it's about how far you can make it on your own

and so far,
4 years without you was a hill to run

i'm just looking for water that's all

because life wasn't supposed to be like this

and

love isn't suppose to hurt this bad