today,
is a new direction,
something just switched,
as i'm writing this,
i feel like i am letting go one of the heaviest rocks i've ever carried,you,
you ruled my world for years on end,
and i can never figure out a way out of your worldi collided with your life,
who you wereyou brought me back to life when i never thought i would be numb for the rest i'd my life,
you made such a big impact on my life,
more than you should of
when i say,
i'll never forget youi mean it
when you feel lonely,
i will be hereand,
i mean it
i can't keep carrying you anymore,
my shoulders are breakingyou are ripping me apart
piece
by
piecedev i'm breaking
you're happy,
and this is something that you've been wanting since you were youngwe both met,
at the stage or our life where we both struggledi related to you,
and i never met you in my lifei love you,
always haveand that says a lot
i thought of you also as a best friend
i don't know what i was to you,
but,i know what you were to me
you'll probably be the death of me,
and,
i'm not ready yet
i've been in my head for years,
i let anxiety and overthinking wini'm gonna change that
if only you knew,
baby,
i'm telling you
maybe things would have been different,
but i kept my mouth shut for 3 years
cause,
"she this"
"she that"
"no that's not true"the list goes on
i know the truth,
and i finally accepted that it's okay for others not to believe mei don't need them on my side,
i don't need you on my side
you're not healthy for me,
you're perfectly wrong for me
i just don't know what the reason for you is yet
if it's not you in this life,
then anotheri don't understand this myself,
but i pray that you find what you were always looking forand just know,
i'd fall for you,
walk on hot coals for youi'd die for you d
nobody will ever have a place on my heart
the way that you sit thereyour voice rings through my head,
i spin with every thought of youit lingers down my spine,
you were my edward,
someone who i confided to,
and reassured me he'll never leave,and devonte,
you didi remember,
cause why would your voice run thru my head every second or the daythis is my goodbye,
i need to live,
and right now,i'm not living
i'm suffering
it's my turn to be happy now,
it's my turn to find the onei hope you love her d,
i hope you promised to love her like you promised to never leave mei don't know what god is trying to tell me,
but one day,i'll know
goodbye d,
i'll love you forever
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what's out there ( a poetry story )
Poetrydeception is never ending, but so is the reality of my life read pay attention focus to every word i say welcome to your chapter