what's out there ( a poetry story )

give me another chance

when i think about you,
my chest gets all tight
and
i feel anxiety all over my body
going down my spine

because you're gone
because of

me

i regret it
and
every day

i hope you will come back,

there's just a little feeling
a little feeling

that you may come back

i know you will
and
i want you to

i miss your hands going down my thighs
making me nervous and shy all at the same time

i miss our kisses
i miss your lips pressing against mine
especially when you would suck on my bottom lip

making me feel weak,
but in a good way

i miss you complimenting me
on my beauty,
my body

i miss holding your hand when you drive,

i miss seeing you smile

with your brown eyes,
straight white perfect teeth,
your big lips

you're perfect to me

you make me feel something,
when i haven't felt like this in years

you gave me hope when i wanted to give up on liking someone

because what's a relationship in 2023?

i just wanna sit on your lap and look you in the eyes

your eyes make me weak

i want your hands all over me
but only for a little while

i wanted love,
but i don't know if i can ever love again

but most definitely,
i miss bonding with you

and

i want that back

things happen for a reason,
everything happens for a reason

i miss you
and

i'm sorry

give me another chance

manifesting you till something changes

yours truly,
a