you might think this is funny,
because,it is
it all started a year ago,
when i decided to say
"fuck it"he's not coming back,
go find someone elsego have
fun
when i first walked in,
i was looking aroundit was huge,
something you see in a movie set upi looked at this one boy,
dreads in his hair,
he wore glasses sometimesi knew i knew him from somewhere
the last day,
i pushed myself to talk to him againbut,
i couldn't remember why i stopped in the first place,but then,
i rememberedi'll get into that a bit later
i told him,
i would love to get to know him more,
we should "hang out"and that's one of the mistakes i made
he then invited to over,
i am already insecure with myself,
so i didn't really know what to expectit was really hot outside,
i took 2 buses to go and see himhe wanted to stay at his place,
so i just agreed cause i wanted him to be comfortablebut i guess,
i wasn'tagain,
i haven't done this in 3 years,
the one i called d was behind bars and out doing drugs with jay,how could i ever replace d?
i always said,
it's us against the world3 years later,
i still feel stuckthis boy,
kind of brought it out of himhe asked me if i ever done drugs before,
and i look at him like"why in the world would you ask me that?"
that's something my ex did
he was a basketball player,
football playerhe was tall,
just like devonte
i think you know where i'm going with this
you can say i am wrong for this,
and because it isi saw devonte in him,
and that,
that is not healthy for mehe put on a movie,
i laid with his arms around meprolly one of the first times i actually wanted to be touched,
because,
YOU ARE READING
what's out there ( a poetry story )
Poetrydeception is never ending, but so is the reality of my life read pay attention focus to every word i say welcome to your chapter