the way you've brought me to my knees the past 3 years,
falling in love behind a screen,
i can't even explain ityou,
you are literally all i think about
and i can go on all day
and
all nightbut you are like a drug i cannot stop doing
i don't understand this myself,
cause i don't know why i act like this when it comes to youit was like a big violent blow,
my whole world was crushedyou see to creep into my mind,
down my chest,
crawling down to my kneesi sit on the floor and stare at my wall sometimes,
cause i feel so fucking confused
and
emptyhow can i let a man hours away from my heart
destroy me?
i let you do it d,
and that's my fault,
not yours,
i am human,
i have feelings,i wish i can turn it off
but it's not that easy,
the way you did it,
seems like it was just one flick of a switchi can say you were my first love,
i never felt this way about anyone in my lifeand i understand things happen for a reason
but what was this reason?
you'll always be remembered as the first man i ever fell in love with
i came out of this different,
and
i'll never be the samethe pain i feel is like
you're sitting on my chest,
and it gets heavier each and every day coming throughit comes un invited,
and hard to get rid ofthe weight of you sits on my chest,
and it's getting hard to breathe
YOU ARE READING
what's out there ( a poetry story )
Poetrydeception is never ending, but so is the reality of my life read pay attention focus to every word i say welcome to your chapter