a song could have many memories,
some good,
some badi remember being 12 years old,
7th grade,
this nerd that was bullied when she did absolutely nothingwhen she was herself
it wasn't enough
pretty hurts,
by beyoncèi remember leaving class to sit in the bathroom stall and ball my eyes out to that song because i thought i wasn't good enough
for me,
for anyone
i remember getting undressed to take a shower snd looking at my reflection in my mirror and i would just start sobbing
no one should ever feel like that
not even a 12 year old little girl
i hated myself more than anyone has ever hated me
i was my biggest bully
what they didn't see,
what was happening in my headi pretend to be fine,
but i was dying insidei would fake sick days,
leave class to cry and come out smilingtill grade 12
those days i never wanna relive again
i was not happy with myself
bullied,
drugged
gossiped abouthaving guys grab me at school
having people spit in my hair in class
list goes on
i'm damaged and will have those memories forever
and no one deserves to be treated like that
especially starting at such a young age
i'm numb about it,
but flashbacks hit there and thenand let me tell you,
it's like i'm there againit hurts
YOU ARE READING
what's out there ( a poetry story )
Puisideception is never ending, but so is the reality of my life read pay attention focus to every word i say welcome to your chapter