Therapy Session [Completed]

Never Ending Thoughts

"Baby sister!"

I watch as Haley came towards me with her arms out before wrapping them around me and holding me tight.

"Uh," I stood there and didn't know what to do. "Why are you hugging me?"

She pulls back and smiles. "I know you don't like hugs-"

"I hate them."

"I know but I'm in such a great mood. Plus it's my day off and I want to spend time with you."

I watch as she walks to the fridge and grabs a water from it before turning towards me.

"What do you want to do today? You don't have therapy and I'm off." She smiles before taking a sip of her water.

Shrugging, I didn't say anything before sitting down at the table. I saw Haley place the bottle down and look at me before placing her hands on her hips.

"I'm going to get you out of this house and we will do something. Go get ready."

Rolling my eyes, I got up and walked out of the kitchen then heard Haley yell for me to hurry up before walking into my room.

-

I like spending time with my sister but our moods and everything else so far from similar.

She's a very outgoing person, which I am not and that doesn't go good together sometimes.

Whenever we go somewhere together and take her car, her music is completely different from mine and I have to sit there and bare it.

"Turn up some music and jam out!"

Looking over at her, she smiles at me before placing her sunglasses on and looks back at the road.

We left our street and turned down another street. I wasn't sure where we were going cause Haley didn't say when I asked.

She said that we would go wherever we ended up and that made me roll my eyes.

Being adventurous wasn't my personally and I'm happy that Haley lives that way but I don't and the whole thought about it makes me want to crawl back into bed.

"You know.. I really love this town. I can't believe that we didn't live here when we were kids. It's amazing." She looks around with a smile on her face before looking over at me. "Do you like it?"

I shrug. "It's quiet."

"Which you like." She points out.

Nodding, I lean my head back and look out the window. I saw the buildings go by and sighed.

We didn't drive far as Haley was pulling into a parking lot. I saw that we were at the Café and I look over at her as she was parking then shutting the car off.

"Why here?"

"You don't like it?"

I look over at the building before sighing. "It's fine but it's not that great." I wasn't a huge fan of this place but I wasn't going to argue with Haley.

We walk in and took a seat near the window. I saw Haley look around and smile before the waiter came and took our drink orders.

It was breakfast time and Haley knew I didn't eat breakfast.

"If you want, you can drink coffee and maybe a small bite of something?"

I shrug as I crossed my arms on the table and sighed. "I'll have to think about it." She made a concerned face before ending the conversation.

We sat there in silence and I was looking out the window most of the time. I watched the cars drive by then looked over at Haley.

The waiter came by and handed us our drinks before asking if we were ready to order.

Haley ordered then looked at me, asking if I wanted just coffee or something else. I looked at the waiter and said coffee was fine.

"I wish you would eat more."

Looking at my sister, I saw her look at me and knee she was worried about me. But we've been through this before and she knows how my appetite is.

When the food and drinks came out, Haley thanked the waiter before starting to eat as I took sips of my coffee and mostly stared out the window.

Haley and I were making small tali as she was eating. She asked how therapy was going and I just shrugged then took a sip from my cup.

"How's the new woman? It's been over two weeks now."

"She's ok."

"Better than the rest?"

Shrugging, I was sure if she was or not. She does listen more and acts like she cares but if I told Haley that then she would get overly excited and it's too early for that.

"Still a little new to the whole situation so it's kind of hard to tell at the moment."

"If this one doesn't work.. what's next?"

Shrugging, I look down at the cup on the table. "I'm not sure."

"You've been through so much.. I just wish someone could help. I hate seeing you like this."

I look up at her as she was looking back at me. "What if I can't get help? What if I'm like this for the rest of my life?"

She stared at me a little longer. "I sure hope not... we already lost mom. I can't lose you too."

Haley was genuinely worried about me and it showed everyday.

I wasn't sure what to say to her or what to do anymore cause she's hard to convince when nothing and nobody has helped me.

Countless therapy.

Medication.

For years.

After mom died and I've been dealing with this shit way before she died.

It's hard living sometimes but I keep pushing on for Haley and Greg. I know it would kill them if something happened to me but convincing then is a little harder than I thought.

Haley has been taking care of me for years and I know I'm putting so much shit on her from the way I am and everything else that's been going on.

She pays the bills and pays for whatever I need, so sometimes it feels like I'm just a burden and maybe nothing will help and I'm better off gone.

I just don't know what to do anymore.