Therapy Session [Completed]

Filling In The Pieces

"So, how was your date?"

"I already told you."

Greg looks at me and smiles. "Yeah but I want to know more about it. All you said was it went good."

I shrug as I wasn't sure what else he wanted me to say. I look over at the empty lot and held onto the rock that was in my hand before tossing it up and hitting it with the stick.

The rock flew across the lot and landed somewhere before I looked over at Greg as he was sitting on the ground.

"Are you two dating now?"

Looking over at the lot, I spotted another rock before grabbing it and tossing it up before hitting it. I watch it fly across the lot before landing and I looked over at him.

"No."

"How come?"

"One date?"

He shrugs. "Lesbians move fast.. I thought."

"But I don't move fast." I look around before seeing a car pass by and my attention went back to him as he was watching me.

"Do you like her?"

I look around again before shrugging and grabbing another rock. I toss it up, hit it and watch it go across the lot somewhere.

"Morgan.. you don't like her?"

"I.. do. Ok? I just don't like the idea of it."

He gave me a look before slowly realising then nodded. I saw him look away for a moment before back at me. "Morgan-"

"Don't lecture me or talk about it. I don't want to hear it."

"You do know that if she really likes you like she claims she does.. you're going to hurt her."

Nodding, I look at him before sighing. "I know, ok? I tried getting her away from me at the beginning. I think it's too late now." I shook my head before tossing the rock up and hitting it.

"You know-"

"Stop." I look at him as he was looking at me. "Greg.. liking people has never been something I did. I'm so messed up that keeping relationships or even friendships for that matter has been hard for me."

He nods. "I know, Morgan. But this one-"

"This one is not different." I knew that for a fact.

It was silent for a few minutes as the only sound that was heard was the rocks hitting the ground from across the lot.

I felt my phone vibrate and knew it was Arianna, but I didn't look at it cause I haven't been responding back to her all day.

Not sure why.

This is still pretty new to me and the whole relationship thing doesn't work out for me like most people.

I knew I wasn't the only one and there were more people out there like me that has the same issues with commitment and relationships. Liking someone. Having feelings. Allowing someone to come in and get close.

The whole thing is a disaster waiting to happen, especially with me and how I am.

Arianna knows that but she doesn't understand that.

She likes me too much for me to tell her this isn't going to work and I don't want to hurt her but if I get dragging her along then it'll hurt even more later on.

I wasn't sure what to do.

Greg tried talking to me about my feelings towards her but I didn't want to talk about them. I knew I liked her a little but they weren't big enough for me to commit to her.