Therapy Session [Completed]

In This Moment

A few more days past and nothing was getting better. I was stuck in a loop with never ending thoughts and I couldn't sleep at night anymore.

Haley and Greg both were worried about me.

They were both constantly checking up on me throughout the night and day when I was sleeping.

Arianna missed a few days of work to be with me and she was mostly in my room, sitting on my bed and talked to me when I was just laying there staring at the walls.

I didn't know what to do.

It was somewhat helping when Arianna was in my room talking to me. I wasn't saying anything but listening to her talk as I had my eyes shut and that eased my mind a little.

When she was in my room today, I was looking at her as she was looking around. I wasn't sure if she was judging my room or just admiring everything.

"Um.." I saw her look at me as I was watching her. "Why did you miss work?"

She gave me a confused look. "I didn't want to leave you. I wanted to be here with you." She searches my eyes for a moment. "Why?"

"I was just wondering." I shrugged.

"Morgan.." She sighs before looking down at the bed. "If it's your thoughts saying that I shouldn't be here then don't listen to them."

She looks at me and I pulled the blanket up more towards my face before looking away. I was tired but I didn't want to sleep cause I couldn't sleep.

"How are you feeling?"

Looking over at her, I stared at her for a moment before shrugging. "Didn't you already ask that already?"

"I'm going to keep asking you, Morgan." She stares at me before looking down at the bed.

"Why do you care about me so much?"

She looks up and meets my eyes. "Cause you're special to me... and I love you." I saw her stare at me before slightly smiling at me.

"But why?"

"Do you have doubts that I don't?" She asks.

Shrugging, I look over at the wall for a moment before feeling her move closer to me. I look over at her as she reaches over and caresses my cheek as she slightly smiles at me.

"Morgan.. if I have to show you everyday that you mean so much to me then I will show you everyday. I don't want you thinking I don't love or care for you. I know you're going through a rough spot again but I'm going to be here through it all."

Staring at her, I sighed before closing my eyes. "Why am I taking steps back?" I open my eyes and look at her. "Why is it different now?"

"It could be a lot of things, Morgan. Everything that happened might have escaped from your mind for a little while and being away from here made you forget everything. Then when you came back, it all rushed at once."

"But why? Is it this town?"

She shook her head as her hand was now running through my hair. "No. It's not the town. It's your mind. Morgan, I want you know that it might be easier sometimes but other times it's going to be hard again. You just need to fight through it." She slightly smiles at me.

"You're strong and I know you'll get through this."

Hearing her say that made me realize that I'm going to be messed up for the rest of my life. I knew that I would have to continue dealing with these thoughts and having my mood change everyday.

It's not fair.

"Is it cause of my mom? I thought I had closure?"

"It's not about closure, Morgan. It's how you are."