Therapy Session [Completed]

Enjoy The Little Things

"Morgan, you ok?"

I look up to see Greg staring at me as we were sitting at a table in the restaurant.

It was the weekend and we were hanging out, which I'm kind of glad cause it gets me out of the house but Greg has already caught me zoning out.

My mind was still on that day at therapy.

I was trying to figure out what it meant and why she did it.

It's been keeping my mind going all last night and this morning. I hardly had any sleep cause of it with thoughts constantly running through my head.

I was glad I didn't have therapy today cause there's no way I would of went.

Not even sure what to do when I have to go back.

"I'm fine. Just tired." I lied asking stirred my straw around my cup before taking a sip.

Greg was watching me and even though he wasn't saying anything, I could tell he knew I was lying.

But he knows I don't like speaking about things so he never asked any questions.

Greg took me out to this restaurant to go out for lunch. I didn't argue cause we've been planning this all week and we hardly ever hang out.

He's always working so we can't do things we used to when we were in high school.

Before I dropped out.

We did everything together before adult life took over and our freedom.

Which I still have somewhat freedom since I'm not working but he's working six days a week and somethings he gets five days but he told me how his work is losing people.

Greg works in the cable company and he likes it but the hours suck.

Which I couldn't do.

I'd lose my shit.

The money is good but the hours are terrible.

But Greg enjoys it so I'm happy for him.

I just wish I could find something and actually hold a job without losing my mind.

"How has therapy been? Is that woman still doing a good job?"

I shrug as I stirred my straw around. I look up at him as he was watching me, waiting for me to answer but knowing I'm not.

"You think she's doing a better job? It's been three weeks."

"I guess.. nothing has improved."

"It won't this early, Morgan. You've been to therapy for years. It takes time."

"Yeah, which means it won't ever happen. I'll always be messed up."

He shakes his head. "You always think negative."

"Cause it's the truth."

We stopped talking when he knew I would keep on and not let him win thus conversation.

My mind set was so gone that nothing would make me believe the positive side of this shit.

Being in this state for years was something hard to think positive about.

That's just how I am.

"What do you want to do after this? We can ride to the city."

I shrug as I really didn't want to do anything else. I've had enough social interaction but didn't want to disappoint Greg any more.

After we were done eating, we sat there for a while not saying a word. I was mostly looking out the window before Greg tells me it's time to go.

We walked out of the restaurant and he wrapped his arm around me. I look down the street as we were walking towards the parking lot.

When we got into the car, Greg asked what I wanted to do but I didn't have any answer for him.

"You want to go back to your house and watch movies?"

I shrug before looking at him. "I don't want to disappoint you."

He gave me a confused look. "What do you mean? You won't disappoint me."

"It's just that.. we hardly hang out and you're always excited about doing things but I never feel like it."

He stares at me for a moment before slightly smiling. "Morgan.. I don't mind what we do. I want you comfortable and enjoy anything we do, so it doesn't matter. We can do whatever you want."

I look at him for a moment before sighing. "I'm sorry."

He furrows his eyebrows then smiles before starting the car and leaving the parking lot.

We drove through town then back to my house before pulling into the driveway.

When we got out, Greg wrapped his arm around me as we walked inside. I knew Haley wasn't here cause she had plans so the house was empty.

"Let's go to the living room and you get comfortable as I grab drinks."

I watch as he walks to the kitchen then I go to the living room. I sat down on the couch then turned the TV on before staring at it.

After started Netflix, I tried finding something as I heard noises coming from the kitchen. I sat there and looked at the tv and realized that Greg was the best friend I've ever wanted and I definitely don't deserve him.

He's always supportive and always understands me even though I never say anything, which makes me think how I ended up with him.

I'm thankful to have him in my life.

After he came back, we started a movie and enjoyed each other's company.

About an hour later, Haley came home and walked into the living room. She asked what we were doing then joined in on the movie after she went upstairs and changed.

We all sat there, enjoying the movie and the company from each other.

It made me enjoy it more as I had my sister and best friend together. I had a small feeling in my chest that made me glad to still be here and grateful I get to enjoy this moment with them.

But there's always that one part tha ruins moments like this.

I tried not letting it win this time but it was hard to do.

Especially when the voices are louder when I'm trying to enjoy moments like these.

It never last long.