Therapy Session [Completed]

A Few Steps Back

I know I said this book had a few chapters left but thanks to that one reader that gave me an idea on what to do on this story, it won't be ending that fast and there's still a few more chapters left

The last few days have been in a stand-still it seems like.

I was ok but I wasn't

The feeling was uncertain and Haley could definitely see it cause she called into work for a few days to stay with me although Greg was here along with Arianna.

Having them here was pretty good but I wasn't sure if they would get tired of being here or not.

I guess my thoughts about that were starting to slowly come back cause I'm home and getting better, so everything was kind of slowing down now and it just seems as though everything was going back to the way it was.

But I didn't tell anyone that.

I tried acting like everything was fine but it was hard to do.

My sleep was not that great anymore and I hardly slept that last few days that I've been home. I was sleeping way better in the hospital but I couldn't understand why.

My body was physically getting better thanks to the meds that I was taking. I had Haley give me them everyday along with the cream that was being applied on my body each day.

My mood was just changing and Haley saw that a few times. She asked about it but I shrugged it off and tried acting like everything was fine but it wasn't.

Having Greg and Arianna here was ok but I hardly paid them any attention cause I was starting to get stuck in my head again and mostly stayed in bed all day.

I faked about hurting so I could lay in bed.

Haley came to my room a few times, asking how I was feeling and talking to me. I tried getting my mind to calm down when she was near and think about when we were back at the hospital but nothing was working.

It was driving me insane.

If I told them about how I was feeling then they would all get worried again and I didn't want that to happen.

My thoughts didn't consist of suicidal thoughts like last time. I wasn't thinking nothing about that but it was just voices in my head laughing at me and just being loud.

It didn't get better when I was around them in the kitchen or living room. I was trying to focus on anything but the thoughts inside my head.

Nothing was helping.

I was beginning to fall again.

And this time I didn't think I was being saved.

I woke up one morning and walked downstairs as Greg and Haley was in the kitchen. I saw Haley at the stove and Greg was doing something at the counter on the other side of the kitchen.

When they both heard me, they turned and Haley smiles at me. "Good morning baby sis. How did you sleep."

"Fine." I walked to the table and sat down before glancing at Haley as she was watching me from the stove.

I saw the way she was looking at me and knew she already knew that something was wrong.

Greg came and sat down a few moments later with a bowl of cereal. I saw him smile at me before stirring his spoon in the bowl. "How are you?" He took a bite and looks at me.

Nodding, I saw Haley watching us before looking back at the stove when I looked over at her. I looked back at Greg as he was watching me with milk dripping down his chin.