Ah, yes. Part 5 of Fading Lights. The last part of the first season.
Let's end it off with a bang, shall we?
After the unfortunate turn of events a few days ago, Jura finds himself in a different area than he's used to and will meet new friend...
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I didn't know what to. This entire situation was tearing at my mind. Which situation, you might ask? The fact that Xander made me completely submissive and broke me for a short amount of time. I hated this. I hated every damn second of this. This is bad, he's not supposed to know my weaknesses!! I groaned and ran a hand down my face, trying to calm down. Maybe he won't use that information against me too many times... Emptily I stared at the paper of the grimoire, feather in hand hovering a bit off of the surface. The ink had created a small puddle already, but I couldn't bring myself to move the feather. A small sigh escaped and and I stared at it, frowning softly. "Calm down, Jubilea, it'll be fine...", I mumbled quietly, trying to get out of this cycle. Quietly tapping on the table with my fingertip, I tried to think of what to write. "Everything okay, babe?", someone asked behind me. I went pale and shot up, uneasy immediately. "Y-Yeah, I'm alright, Xander.", I replied, trying to keep my voice calm. Xander came up to me and held me close from behind, smiling. "I'm glad.", he replied softly, kissing my cheek. I nodded a bit and leaned against him, trying to pretend that all was fine. He soon noticed tho and frowned. "You're not alright, Jubilea.", he mumbled quietly. "What's wrong?" "Nothing..." "Don't you dare lie to me." I flinched a bit at his sharp tone. "Did you just threaten me?", I shot back, visibly unhappy. He frowned. "No. But you shouldn't lie to your husband." "What, even when he constantly attempts to break me??" Xander paused a bit, confused before understanding. "Wait why are you bringing that up, I'm not planning on hurting you.", he said, slightly disturbed by the thought itself. "Then why do you always try to break me?" "I'm not planning on breaking you fully, babe. All I wanted is to give you more pleasure." "By breaking me?" "Jubilea!", he barked, now offended. "I am not intending to hurt you like that! All that I want is for you to feel good, but it's hard figuring out what you enjoy! So at least try to calm down, I'm not gonna take advantage of you! I didn't a few days ago either!" I fell silent, not sure what to do anymore. I hated when he raised his voice. "Why even are you so much against this, Jubilea?", Xander asked. "Being completely submissive isn't that bad." I placed the feather down and ran a finger over the metal handpiece. "I... don't like when others know my weaknesses. I fear that they'll be used against me, it has happened too many times in the past... I only want to be pushed past my limits with my consent, otherwise I feel as if you're indirectly pressuring me...", I eventually quietly admitted. Xander frowned. "But-" "No buts, Xander. Please just accept it and don't push me past my limits. I respect yours as much as I can as well and don't try to hurt you. So do so too please...", I interrupted him. He sighed, but nodded. "Can you at least clam down then?", he mumbled. I stared at him, quite a bit perplexed. "I... don't think you understo-" "I did, Jubilea. But still. Calm down, I'll follow your orders.", he interrupted me this time, rubbing over my shoulders. I frowned a bit, not exactly sure if I should believe him or not. He took that so easily, it was genuinely unbelievable. I felt as if he was lying to me, as if he didn't take me seriously since now he was hugging me from behind, kissing my neck softly. A quiet sigh escaped me. "Sweetheart, are you even taking me seriously here...? I feel like you aren't, but this is very important to me.", I said, uneasy. At this point he let out a loud groan, pulled out my chair so he could sit down on my lap, and pretty much forced me to look into his eyes by putting his hands on my cheeks. He stared into my eyes, visibly upset. "Jubilea, I understood and respect your wish. I won't do it again. Are you finally happy with that?", he said firmly, no doubt a bit pissed. I hesitated a bit, but gave in and nodded. He sighed softly and pulled me close, letting me hide in his chest since I couldn't reach much higher anyway. I hid in his hoodie, closing my eyes tiredly. My mind was a mess of emotions, my body felt weak and frail. I needed a long break, I was mentally and physically at my limit. Multiple years of relentlessly struggling against the problems I'm put up against, the others have done absolutely nothing in comparison to that. A Witherstorm? A few killers? Death? Absolute bullshit against all the shit I had to go through, but nonetheless stressful. I hated every second of this. Maybe it would've been easier to have Nightmare kill me once and for all, that way I can't respawn again... But with my luck, that will happen when I need that the least. Like with Jay and Notch... That's another problem. We have absolutely no clue where the hell that guy is. Pietro and Ben went out to search on him, but there was absolutely no way in hell we'd find that god. Like, that's some weird shit. He never appeared in the hall, nor in any other judgement, so now he's probably kidnapped, or floating around in space. Which is the worst shit that could ever happen. If Notch fell off of the edge and down into the abyss, he is dead. He probably suffocated or got murdered by the world border down there. I sighed and hid more, noticing Xander rub over my head with his hand in an attempt to calm me down. It barely worked, but somewhere down the line I fell asleep on his chest, exhausted.
