2 weeks later:
Derek hasn't been to school all week. I've looked everywhere for him. I even asked the office but they said they couldn't tell me anything about it.
I finally gather the courage to go to his house. I get ready and walk to his house. I knock on his door. "Oh, hi meredith" carol smiles. She must not know what I did.
"Hi.. derek hasn't been in school for weeks, is he okay?" I ask. "Did nobody tell you?" She asks. "Tell me?" I ask. "Um.. come inside" she says. I walk in. We go to the kitchen.
"Sit down" she says. I sit at the table. She sits opposite me. "A week and a half ago Derek's depression got really bad and when I went into his room, he was still asleep.. I tried to wake him up but he wouldn't" she says. My heart drops.
"What?!" I put my hand on my stomach, trying not to be sick. "I called an ambulance.. he's perfectly okay but he overdosed on antidepressants" she says.
"He claims it to be an accident but the hospital suggested holding him for 2 weeks" she says. Tears run down my cheeks. "I know honey" she stands up, hugging me.
"I thought he was just ignoring me or Ill or something" I whisper. She pulls away slowly. She wipes my tears.
"You wanna visit him with me today?" She asks. I nod. I sniffle, wiping my cheeks. "I didn't think he'd do that" I whisper. "Me either sweetheart" she whispers.
"When are you going?" I ask. "We can go now" she says. I grab my phone and she grabs her bag off of the table. We get in her car and she drives us to the hospital.
We walk in and they show us to his room. I stop outside the door. She looks at me. "You okay?" She asks. "I don't know if he'll want to see me" I say.
"The last time I was here all he was asking about was if he could see you" she says. "Really?" I ask. She smiles small, nodding.
"You know what?.. I'm going to get us some coffees.. you go in there and talk to him" she says. "Okay" I say. She walks away.
I take a breath before walking in. He's sat at a desk in the corner. Of course he's doing homework still. "Derek" I say nervously. He turns around immediately.
"Meredith" he says. I walk over to him. "Are you okay?" I put my hands on his cheeks. "Yeah" he whispers. I let out a breath, tears streaming down my cheeks.
"Don't ever do that again!" I hit him. I sob harder. "I know.. I'm sorry" he gently pulls me onto his lap. I wrap my arms around him, crying into his neck. "I'm sorry" he whispers, stroking my back gently.
"I didn't know what happened.. I would've seen you weeks ago" I put my hands on his neck, looking into his eyes. "I thought you.. didn't care" he sighs. "Of course I care" I say.
"Don't ever do that again please.. if you think life is crap already, one without you in it would be a thousand times worse" I say. He wraps his arms tight around me.
"I don't ever ever want to live in a world you're not In.. please don't make me" I say. He squeezes me tighter. I sob harder into his neck. "Please don't cry.. I'm sorry" he says.
"I feel so guilty.. I don't- I can't believe what I did led you to do something so so terrible.. I'm so sorry" I say. "Its not your fault meredith" he says.
I pull away slowly. "I love you so much derek" I whisper. He looks into my eyes. "I know you're mad at me.. you probably hate me right now but I need you to know how much i love you" I say.
The door opens. I carefully climb off of his lap. I sniffle, wiping my tears. Carol walks in. "Mom you're huge!" Derek says. "Oh, thankyou honey" she says sarcastically. I giggle.
"How have you grown so much since last week!?" He walks over to her. He puts his hand on her bump. She chuckles, hugging him. He hugs her back.
"How are you doing baby, you okay?" She puts her hands on his cheeks. I smile. His relationship with his mom is adorable. "Mhm.. I'm good" he smiles.
"I got you a coffee" she passes it to him. "Thankyou" he takes a sip before putting it on the desk. "Thanks" I smile as she passes me one too.
"Here sit on the bed mom" he helps her sit down. "I'm not an invalid honey" she chuckles. "I'm just making sure you're okay" he smiles.
"Is there a bathroom here?" I ask. "Its outside.. just across the hall" he says. I walk out. I go to the bathroom. As soon as I'm in there I break down.
I get my phone out and call my mom. "Hi honey" she says. I sob quietly. "Meredith, what's wrong?" She asks. "D-derek tried to overdose two weeks ago.. he's fine but he's in the hospital and I- I can't-" I sob.
"Oh, honey" she whispers. "I'm here now.. I came with his Mom but I can't- do you think he did it because of me?" I put my hand on my chest, trying to calm myself down.
"No mer, he already had depression.. he must be going through a lot right now.. its not your fault.. just be there for him" she says. I sniffle. "You okay?" She asks. "Yeah, I am" I say quietly. We say bye before hanging up.
I walk back into his room after fixing my makeup a little. Me, Carol and him talk for a while before we need to leave.
He hugs his mom bye. She walks out of the room and he turns to me. I hug him tight. "I could never hate you meredith.. you did a stupid thing but I still love you.. more than words can describe" he whispers. My heart clenches in my chest.
"Text me as soon as you get out of here.. I'm not letting you out of my sight and I mean it" I warn. He smiles, nodding. I look into his eyes. "Bye" he whispers. "Bye" I walk past him, out the door.
