"Are you not warm?" I chuckle, looking at derek in his hoodie as he sits at his desk, playing on his PlayStation. "No" he says.
I walk over to him. I lean down, kissing his neck as I play with his curls.
"Derek you're boiling" I put my hand on his head. "I'm fine mer" he says. I kiss his cheek. "Stop fussing" he chuckles, fanning me away. I grin.
He keeps talking to his friends. I run my fingers through his hair before going downstairs.
I grab something from the kitchen and talk to Carolyn for a bit before going back upstairs.
I walk over to him. He's still playing. I put my hands on his cheeks, kissing him. He pulls away slowly. I kiss him again.
He puts his hand on my waist, pulling me onto his lap. I kiss him again. He laughs against my lips. I frown, pulling away.
"Sorry, they can hear us kissing" he pulls off his headset. I giggle. I run my fingers through his curls. "You've changed conditioner" I say. "I don't use conditioner" he rolls his eyes. "Yes you do!" I giggle.
He grins. I chuckle. "You smell nice" I say. He smiles. I kiss his neck, gently sucking on his skin.
My tongue brushes against his skin as I kiss all over his neck. He pulls on my hair. I smile, moaning as he kisses me passionately.
He kisses down my jaw, sucking on my neck. We go back to kissing. Both of us moan against eachothers lips as our tongues fight.
I run my hands up his hoodie. He gently pulls my hands away. I put them on his cheeks.
My hands run back down his body, tugging on his hoodie. He gently pulls them away again. "Derek" I breathe against his lips.
I pull away slowly. "Are you not in the mood?" I smile, brushing his hair out of his face, kissing his forehead.
"I'm always in the mood for you" he nibbles on my bottom lip, pulling on it gently. I push our lips together. I put my hands on his cheeks.
I pull on his hoodie. He pulls my hands away. "Can you stop doing that!?" I pull away from his lips. "I'm sorry" he says.
"What's wrong with you?" I frown. "Nothing.. I'm cold" he says. I squint. I grab his arm. "Meredith don't!" He pulls away. I grab it again, pulling up his sleeve.
I gasp, standing up. "Meredith" he stands up, pulling down his sleeve. "Derek" I say tearfully. "I'm sorry" he holds my arm gently.
I pull away, going downstairs. "Meredith!" He follows me. I go to the downstairs bathroom, into the medicine cabinet. "Mer don't" he says.
I grab his pill bottle, opening it. Its full to the top. He looks at me. I look into his eyes. "You haven't been taking them" I whisper.
"I-" he stops. I shove the bottle into his hand and barge past him. "Meredith" amelia says. "I'm going amy, I'll see you later sweetie" I kiss her head. "Bye" she says. I smile at her before leaving.
"Meredith!" I hear derek call after me as I walk quickly down the street. I get to the end of the road and call a cab home.
I get home and walk in. "I thought you were staying at Derek's tonight?" My Mom says. "Well I'm not" I say.
"What happened?" She asks. "Hes not been taking his stupid pills!" I yell. "Sweetheart" she walks towards me. She puts her hands on my cheeks. I look into her eyes tearfully.
"Ask him why.. he might have a perfectly good reason.. you can't blame him for it" she whispers. "But he's got scars on his arm" my lip trembles. "Then be there for him" she says. I hug her.
"I'm gonna end it with him" I say. "What?" She pulls away. "He's not happy, so why would we stay together?" I say. "Mer-" she stops. I raise my brow. "Just talk to him" she says.
My phone starts ringing. I take it out of my pocket as I walk upstairs. "Hello" I say. "Mer please come back to my house.. I want to talk to you" he says. "N-no.. I can't.. its far too late to get another cab now" I say.
"I'm here, I'm outside your house.. please come out.. we can go for a drive" he says. I look out my window.
He's in his car, his head against his steering wheel as he talks to me. He looks really upset. I blink away my tears. "Yeah baby, I'm on my way out" I whisper.
I hang up and walk downstairs, going out to his car. I get in the passenger seat. "Thankyou for coming out" he holds my hand, kissing it. I smile small. He entwines our fingers.
He starts driving. He goes to the nearest parking lot, which just happens to be outside a mcdonalds.
"Why aren't you taking your pills?" I ask. "T-theres a bunch of side affects to the pills" he says. I nod. "I just wanted to feel property again" he whispers.
"What side affects were you having?" I ask. "A few.. I wasn't able to process my emotions properly and I was getting bad headaches" he says.
"Why don't you talk to your doctor then?" I ask. "I've changed my prescription so many times.. I dont want to" he says tearfully. I put my hand on his cheek, looking into his eyes.
"I don't want you to hurt yourself" I whisper. "I feel like crap" he pushes his face into my hand. I wipe his tears with my thumb.
"I need you to start taking them" I say. "I can't" he whispers. "Please derek" I say.
He puts his hand on mine that's resting on his cheek. He kisses my hand softly.
"I'll talk to my doctor" he says. "Thankyou" I whisper. He looks down.
I gently hold his hands. I pull up his sleeves, looking at the scars. "They're not very deep.. they should heal without a scar I think" I whisper.
"Did you do it anywhere else?" I ask. "No.. my thighs were hurting too much when I walk because of all the-" he stops, looking away.
I kiss his scars softly on both of his arms. I pull his sleeves back down. "Derek" I say. He keeps looking out the window. "Look at me" I put my hand on his cheek. He pulls it away.
I sigh. "Fine" I get out of the car. I walk around and open his door, climbing onto his lap, straddling him. I close the door.
"Look" I put my hands on his cheeks. He looks into my eyes, tears running down his cheeks. "Its okay" I whisper.
He hugs me tight, pushing his face into my shoulder. I wrap my arms around his neck.
"Are you going to break up with me? I'd understand If you did.. you deserve much better than me but I really don't want to lose you" he cries quietly into my skin.
"I'm not going to break up with you" I gently pull away, putting my hands on his cheeks. I rest my forehead against his.
"I love you so much" I kiss his lips softly. He wipes his tears. "I believe you made a promise to me.. and I know you don't like breaking those" I show him the promise ring he gave me. He smiles small.
I take off his glasses, putting them aside. I wipe under his eyes gently. I kiss him softly.
"If I were a better guy I'd walk away" he says. "Yes you would" I say. "Do you want me to be a better guy?" He asks. "No" I smile.
I put my hands on his cheeks, kissing him deeply. We pull away slowly. I get off of him and climb back onto the passenger seat.
He drives us back to my house and we spend the rest of the night there instead.
