I walk over to my window. "Hey" I bend down to him. He rests his chin on the window, looking at me. "Hi" he says. I smile.
"Is your ass okay?" I ask. "What?" He chuckles. "Seeing as you fell right onto it when you went out of the window before" I giggle. He blushes, rolling his eyes. I laugh.
"So.." I say. "So.." he grins. "Come in!" I giggle. He chuckles, climbing into my room. We sit on my bed infront of eachother.
He looks down. "What?" I ask. "Okay, I lied" he whispers, looking up. I furrow my brows. "My mom didn't text me earlier" he says.
I giggle. "Derek, I know" I hit him lightly. "You do?" He asks. "You're not a good liar" I grin. "Oh, good.. I felt bad for lying" he let's out a breath. I smile. He's so cute.
"Its good that you don't like to lie" I say. "I don't like to" he shakes his head. "But do you?" I ask. "Not often" he says.
"You ever lied to me?" I raise my brow. He shakes his head. "Apart from today.. but that's just coz I got nervous when I remembered I kissed you" he looks down. I smile.
"Two more people kissed me after you left" I say. "Who?" He looks at me. "Cristina and izzie" I giggle. "Oh, I'm sorry I'm missed it" he says sarcastically. I giggle.
"Who was better? Me, izzie or cristina?" He grins. "Mhm.. cristina" I nod. He glares at me. I giggle. "You're the best" I grin. He smiles.
"I wasn't even trying" he rolls his eyes jokingly. I giggle, hitting him playfully. "Come on.. let's see you in your glasses" he grabs my glasses from my bedside table.
I shake my head. "Please" he grins. I groan, taking them. I put them on. "You look nice" he says.
I roll my eyes, taking them off. He chuckles softly. "You do.. trust me" he kisses my cheek. I smile as I get butterflies in my stomach.
He reaches into his pocket. "Don't shoot" I hold my hands up jokingly. He laughs. "Shut up" he says. I grin. He takes a bag of malteasers out of his pocket.
"I got you chocolate from the shop on the way here" he passes me them. "Thankyou" I smile, taking them. "You're welcome" he says.
I lean against my headboard, eating the chocolate. "Meredith" he says. "Yeah?" I ask. He moves next to me, resting his head on my shoulder from behind. I lean back on him, resting my head on his chest.
"Can I show you something?" He asks. I nod. He pulls out his phone. "Don't judge me" he whispers. "I would never.." I furrow my brows.
"You can't tell anyone, okay?" He says. "Okay" I say. "I applied to this" he shows me something on his phone. I read it. My eyes go wide. It's a science course.
"This is in london" I whisper. "Yeah" he says. "Wh-what? You wanna.. you're moving away?" I ask. "I haven't got accepted yet.. I probably won't" he says.
"Your family agreed to this?" I ask. "My mom signed it.. they wouldn't be moving with me.. I'd get my own apartment next to the school" he says. I hope he doesn't get accepted. God, thats so selfish.
"I'd really miss you" I say. "I'm not getting in, mer.. I'm just telling you because.. I dont know why, actually" he says. There's a few moments of silence.
"Meredith" he breaks the silence. "Yeah?" I ask. "What do you want to be when you're older?" He asks. I think for a few seconds. "I don't know" I say.
"What about you?" I turn my body around so I'm sat infront of him on my knees. "I wanna be a surgeon" he says. "Really?" I ask. He nods.
"My mom's a surgeon" I say. "I know" he says. "How?" I ask. "You told me" he chuckles. "Oh" I giggle. "Plus, I know who Ellis grey is.. the grey method is legendary" he says.
I gasp. "What?" He asks. "Are you using me to get to my mother? Is that why you're friends with me? So you can get a job for her when you're older?" I ask teasingly. "Yeah, that's totally why I hang out with you" he says jokingly. I giggle.
"I'm not sure what I wanna be yet" I shrug. "You'll figure it out" he says. I smile small. "You seem to have it all figured out" I lay next to him. "Not everything" he shrugs. He lays next to me.
I move a chocolate to his lips. He grins, eating it. I smile. "Why did you kiss me?" I whisper. "I don't know" he says. My heart sinks. He did it because he was drunk. "I'm sorry" he says.
"Sorry about what?" I ask. "For kissing you.. and dragging you away from your friends that day" he says quietly. "Its okay" I shake my head.
"I should go" he says. "Yeah, we have school tomorrow" I say disappointed. He nods. We both get up. "I'll see you tomorrow" I walk to the window with him. Kiss me goodbye.. please
"Bye mer" he says, climbing out of the window. It hurts. He doesn't like me back. "Careful" I grin. He rolls his eyes jokingly. I giggle. "Bye" I whisper as he climbs down the ladder. I shut the window.
I sigh, going to my dresser. I get changed into my pyjamas, put my clothes in the laundry basket and go into the bathroom. I wash my face, brush my teeth and get into bed.
I text my friends, updating them a little on what happened between me and derek. I put my phone on charge. I cuddle under my covers before soon falling asleep.
I just watched the mernick ily scene.. not to be dramatic or anything, but i feel physically ill.. I've been crying for the past half hour (he said ily in the exact same place derek did for the 1st time.. anyone notice??) (I know I'm very toxic and should just be happy that mers happy but I'm not.. HELLO!?! WHAT ABOUT MY HAPPINESS?) 😭💀
And I'm starting 'it ends with us'.. it better be good
Omg also, I was reading a Colleen hoover book today in school and my teacher saw, gave me a look and said 'oh, I've heard of that book.. it has very "mature content" In it, doesn't it?'.. BRO.. iTS BEEN LIKE 7 HOURS SINCE THEN AND I STILL HAVENT RECOVERED FROM THE EMBARRASSMENT
