I Think I Like You

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TW: drugs
KAIS POV
I was laying next to Amelia in bed. We hadn't said anything to each other in at least an hour. I was mad at her, but my heart also ached for her. She didn't deserve any of the shit that happened to her. I just didn't know how to help her. And I just feel so guilty she went to drugs before me. She told me it wasn't my fault but I feel like it is. I feel like I haven't been a good partner. I feel like I've let her down. I looked over at Amelia and she was laying on her side staring at me.
"You're thinking," she said softly.
"Yeah," I said.
"It's not your fault," she said.
"It feels like it," I admitted.
"It's not," she said, "what I did wasn't right, but I did it because I wanted to, not because of anything you did."
"I just wish you went to me first and not drugs," I said, and the way it came out, I knew it hurt her. She didn't say anything.
"I didn't mean it like," I started, but she cut me off by saying, "you're right." I nodded.
"I made a mistake," she said, "and I hope you can forgive me."
"I'm mad at you," I said.
"I know," she said.
"But I love you tremendously and cannot imagine the pain you're going through, so I want to be there for you. I want to be there for you in every way I can," I said.
"I appreciate everything you've done for me," she said, "and I'm sorry I've made you feel like you weren't enough in the past few hours because that's not the case. You are more than I have ever needed, and you are so patient. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'm sorry I don't always show it." I felt a tear escape my eye and I looked at her.
"I needed to hear that," I said, "thank you." She nodded and kissed my cheek.
"Are we going to be okay?" She asked.
"I'd like to think so," I said, "I don't want to end things over this, do you?"
"No," she said, "I don't."
"Well, then we are just going to have to work through this, and it'll be okay," I said.
"Okay," she nodded.
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"Kai," Amelia said. I opened my eyes. She sounded like she was in pain. She was sweating like crazy.
"Can you take me to the hospital please," she begged, her voice was weak. Fuck. Something was wrong.
"Yeah let's go," I said without even thinking. I grabbed my shoes and coat and grabbed my phone on the way out. I didn't even check the time until we were sitting in the back of the Uber. 3am.
"What hurts?" I asked as I looked at her.
"My stomach," she said, "and I feel like I'm dying."
"Okay," I said, "we're almost at the ER okay?" She nodded. She looked sick. I was worried. The Uber dropped us off and I picked Amelia up and rushed her into the ER. They got her a bed immediately and got her hooked up to an IV. Nurses said she was super dehydrated.
"What did you take?" The nurse asked her.
"Nothing, I'm sick I had a fever before," Amelia said. She was lying. I don't know if the nurse bought it. She left and closed the door.
"Why are you lying?" I looked at her.
"The drugs were illegal Kai I can't get arrested!" She yelled at me.
"Okay," I nodded, "Fine that's fine. Don't you think they'll figure it out anyway?"
"We could say I was drugged. That we went out to a bar," Amelia said.
"Are you insane?" I said to her.
"Kai I don't know what to do!" She said.
"Don't take fucking drugs!" I yelled at her. I shouldn't have said it.
"I need to go for a walk," I said. She nodded. I felt like shit. I shouldn't be yelling at her. I'm just freaked out. I've never done this before. I don't even know what she took. I walked down the hallway and just tried to breathe. Everything would be okay. It had to be.